Time and place for all things.  Perhaps now is not the time for the fulfillment of certain desires.  As that is the case, one must get prepared and be prepared for the difficult path that lie ahead because of that.  Regardless of what the heart desires, one's desire for Father must prevail.  That being, even cultivating a spirit of joy in the midst of possible sorrow and hardship due to heartsickness.

Strength may not lie in resisting the pain that ensues, but rather, in the acknowledgment of it, and the courage and conviction to keep moving forward.  Not in ignorance, but in full embodiment of the Truth of what really is.  It reminds me of what was once told about two different types of people, and what happens to the two different types when they must kill because of self defense or other.  The first type is the type that only becomes numb to killing, and each time it gets easier and easier, which is probably a horrible reaction.  The second type of person will feel bad about what has occurred, but keeps moving forward.

There was an interesting concept that came to mind about...children.  At least in parenting them.  The idea is that perhaps softer, kinder children do not require the same immensely strict discipline that more rough and difficult children may require.  For a long while, I had thought that discipline should always be strict and firm.  Yet, on the other side of things, it would seem that perhaps children can be warned ahead of time when they are going in the wrong direction, and then continually taught.  Perhaps a combination of those two would be best, especially given the child and the situation.  It's like a spectrum of sorts...  There have been teachings that there are two opposite sides to things...  Polar opposites...  Yet, with male and female, there seems to be a balance between the two to help correlate everything together.  Male or female doesn't seem to be able to be linked with "right" or "wrong," but rather, all in existence that Father had originally intended works well.

Pain may not be the focus, but only the consequence.  If one seeks the Truth, they don't look around, they go straight to the Source.  We reap what we sow.  All things balance out as they should.

There is an attitude that I have that seems to strongly be right in line with having humility.  That is that when something happens to me, especially painful, that I go straight to "I deserve this," rather than ever ask, "why me?"  This goes in line with the following:

Matthew 5:39 -- But I tell you, don't resist an evildoer. On the contrary, if anyone slaps you on your right cheek, turn the other to him also.

It also goes further than just, "I deserve this."  It is also along the lines of, "I will receive this and not resist it."  There are some things, it seems, that one should defend oneself in, though, such as murder.  Yet, even Christ allowed Himself to be subjected to murder.  This, in itself, seems to be something deeply integrated into following Father's Spirit.

Something that one must be very careful to not do is uproot or remove to examine or quarantine something that is actually good that Father had planted already.  One must remember what was planted, and also look towards Father for guidance as to what one should examine, if at all.  I had caused myself to suffer a bit because I had, essentially, rejected a gift from Father by cross-examining something that was obviously provided in a revelation of wisdom.

One should also not seek to punish themselves into being humble, or push themselves further into humility.  One should allow Father to place that fruit in one's heart, rather than trying to force it, or their efforts might actually prove, well, fruitless.  At the same time, one must not allow anything such as pride to grow where humility should grow.  The wrong plants being grown where the right plants should be is a horrible misdemeanor against the One who owns one's heart.  It would be even worse to be happy about that.  That...is something that may take self reflection to see.

One of the things that I seem to be consistently rebuked about is in taking something good, and cross-examining it and keeping it at arms length, even though I can easily tell that it is okay and good.  I have taken desires and pushed them away, desires that are good, rather than doing what I can to possibly cultivate them further.  There is probably a way to stop doing that...

It also seems that there is truly a proper, decent, and good practice to put all things that are good to work.  The only problem is the timing and the place.  All restrictions apply and one must be willing to walk within those restrictions.  It all is truly a learning process.

The proper application of all gifts that Father has provided will be able to be further learned and properly cultivated in the time to come.  Something to really look forward to.

Sometimes it's nice to stop, and chill.

Not all thoughts need be expressed in words.  Idle talk and thoughts that do not produce any fruit are not any good.  They take up space and energy for nothing.