If one person's presence in a place makes all the difference in aura, atmosphere, and everything else, so much more should Father's in one's own life, as Father is everywhere and everything is made from Her energy, even thoughts.

Further Unity with Father, and a continuous and an augmenting absorption of Father's nourishment and qualities within one's heart brightens and heightens everything around them, including all their senses and their mind.  It brightens their words, heightens their speech, brightens and heightens their eyes (and the sight that comes with their eyes, if their eyes are fully formed and connected, without damage), increases the sensitivity of their senses and ability to sense.

As Father is light, it is no burden to keep Her on one's mind, but rather, a delight.  More, much more, than just a delight.  And especially, at the top of one's mind, at all times.  If Father is the capstone and cornerstone of one's every thought, and/or the foundation and roof of their thought, then their thought will have a solid foundation and anything else that may be associated with such a metaphor, and many, many more.

As well, if thought is used to move arms, speak, and/or other things, and Father is the beginning and end of one's thought, then their movements also have the above said qualities.  And further, if Father guides one's every thought, then Father truly guides their every movement.

1 Corinthians 13:4-6 -- Love is patient; love is kind. Love does not envy;
    is not boastful; is not conceited;
    does not act improperly; is not selfish;
    is not provoked; does not keep a record of wrongs;
    finds no joy in unrighteousness, but rejoices in the truth;

The last line, "but rejoices in the truth."  Something interesting that I had spoken to one person in the past about is how the truth has a certain vibrance to it.  A person can sort of feel it in their heart.  An item that might be pondered is how Father's Spirit rejoices in Truth, how Father is love, how one's heart can house Father's Spirit, and how one's own heart can rejoice in the Truth if in Union with Father's Spirit, and in that way, also with Father's love.

Another interesting concept was about how the center of a person's vision is less apt to adapt to low-light conditions as one's peripheral.  Although the center of one's vision is a focus point for light to be received, it doesn't mean that it has to be slow to adapt to a change in lighting.  It may be a genetic thing, but ... though, genetics are the way they are for a reason.  Perhaps learning a symbolic reason for why this is might be for a another time, but one scripture that seems to tie in with this concept is this:


Ecclesiastes 11:7 -- Light is sweet, and it is pleasing for the eyes to see the sun.

If a portion of one's eyes is full from light, it may take more time for that portion to be rested from it, kind of like a stomach with certain nutrients.

Ecclesiastes 1:8 -- All things are wearisome; man is unable to speak. The eye is not satisfied by seeing or the ear filled with hearing.

On another note:

2 Peter 3:9 -- The Lord does not delay His promise, as some understand delay, but is patient with you, not wanting any to perish, but all to come to repentance.

Father has made promises, and fulfills them.  Christ did not delay his own help.  As Christ's footstep followers, we should learn to do the same.

If a pattern in eating a certain food creates a pattern of bad side effects, it would make sense to stop eating that food.  However, praying to Father for a suitable substitute for the nutrients that would be found in that food that provides adverse side effects might be a good idea.

Furthermore, Father will guide a person's heart, following all the Wisdom that has already been provided, and even in areas that a person may not totally be able to understand or know about, themselves.  Actually, concerning all the aspects of anything, oneself may not be able to tell, because that would be to try to see the beginning or end of something...and that would be a transgression against what Father spoke of in Her Word concerning the knowledge of anything, and in man not knowing the beginning or end of Father's works.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 -- He has made everything appropriate in its time. He has also put eternity in their hearts, but man cannot discover the work God has done from beginning to end.

1 Corinthians 8:2 -- If anyone thinks he knows anything, he does not yet know it as he ought to know it.

So in the things that a person does, they can't totally determine whether or not it is right or wrong except based on Father's Spirit and all that Father has already provided.  If something does not seem to have anything wrong to it up to the senses that a person has, but Father's Spirit guides oneself from it, they should stay away from it.  If something does not seem to have anything wrong with it, and Father's Spirit guides one towards it, and everything including prayer towards Father concerning what is seeming like a course of action to take, it would definitely be good to follow Father's Spirit on those matters.  If something doesn't seem right based on what has already been provided, it must not be followed through with.  All parts will correlate.

So, for example, if there is a dessert that a person can have, and there doesn't seem to be anything wrong with the dessert, and Father's Spirit doesn't guide one's heart from it, but towards it, it's okay.  If oneself is not guided towards the dessert by Father's Spirit, they should stay from it.  If the dessert is an obvious mistake because of its obvious unhealthy contents, Father wouldn't guide oneself towards eating it, and oneself should not eat it.

Just because things seem okay within one's heart doesn't mean that things are actually okay.

There are a lot of mention of different women, figuratively and literally, in scripture.  Quite interesting.  There is a woman named Wisdom.  There is also a woman named Folly.  There are characteristics given to each of the different women, and what all encompasses the interaction with them.  Safety and danger, life and death.  Light and dark.

It is also interesting what the world is capable of doing to a person's heart.  If a person has a natural yearning for something in their heart that is a desire that may be deemed as okay, but does not allow it to go forth due to the Wisdom provided by Father, their heart will possibly become sick.  Painfully.  Depression may ensue.  If there is something that perturbs that desire, it can cause the person's heart to feel okay, and once that desire is not satisfied any further, it is pressed back into heartsickness, and may hurt worse.  But it would only be for a period of time.  Yielding to despair or utter depression is unnecessary, though.

One of the more difficult things in the world is possibly trying to live as a foreigner in it, and still look around and see so much that would cause a person to become very sad.  To realize and maintain a realization that the things around theirself aren't pleasant and still maintain happiness and joy is quite a feat of strength that I think that only Father is capable of, and in that, only from Father would anyone be able to do so.  It is important that oneself not become ignorant and close their eyes so that they can be happy, or try to be (but ignorance does not give happiness), and it is also important that in that Truth, also realize that in Father there is still hope and faith in a better future for a paradise that Father has intended.  The current times in the sinful touch that has been imprinted on creation don't seem to be times to be happy about, but that doesn't mean one's happiness should be destroyed, but rather, that in hope, one looks towards Father for support and strength in light of the situation.

One of the things that I may not be able to put into proper words that have come to mind as a lesson is in following Father's Spirit in all matters.  One's mind can become corrupted, which can make the heart treacherous.  That came from a close brother.  If oneself learns a lesson in their mind, they must stick to that lesson and not let it be corrupted or replaced by something else.  One's heart can naturally have feelings in it, but those things can be used against oneself.  More so, the lessons that come to a person's mind can come together, and some may not.  The things that are evil can also try to make their place in one's mind, and if that happens, and the evil causes confusion to come up in one's mind, it's real dangerous.  In fact, confusion is one of the things that demons will attempt to use against a person.  Or people.  Rebels against Father.  Rebels against Wisdom and Truth.

Oneself cannot rely on their heart's feelings in order to determine whether something is okay, or not, or whether one's situation is okay.  A person cannot rely on their understanding, either.  Simply upon Father, Herself.  This is all encompassing, which includes aspects outside of oneself.  If oneself knows something solid, then it is.  Christ is a cornerstone that Father has provided.  If oneself accepts Father's gift, of which Christ had also lovingly accepted to be a part of, then one's building will also include Christ's teaching, which come from Father.

If oneself listens to evil, as evil can also play on a person's desires, then their conduct will also be against Father.  Aligning what oneself wants with what Father wants is very important.  And if what oneself wants is not right, they can still bring it to Father, and Father will be a Father to the one who shows integrity.

Consider, if what is in a person's heart may cause them to sin, and the person brings it to Father instead of acting incorrectly, wouldn't Father help to heal their heart, as cultivating negativity within one's heart is basically a disease?

Something interesting is that amongst all the desires within one's heart, the love for Father must be top.  It doesn't mean that all the other desires must be destroyed, nor does it mean that a person must act on all other desires.  If there is any desire within one's heart that would contradict that love for Father, then perhaps it is time to really stop and pray to Father and meditate towards Father on what needs to be done.  Sometimes, as it is, there isn't anything that oneself can do.  Father has total control over everything, and as such, one's own heart can be easily molded by Father's own thought.

Something else interesting is the following:

Matthew 5:30 -- And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of the parts of your body than for your whole body to go into hell!

Matthew 12:7 --  If you had known what this means: I desire mercy and not sacrifice , you would not have condemned the innocent.

If a person's heart's desires cause them to sin, it does not mean that they should cut their heart's desires out.  I know that for Truth.  It also helps to answer what Father would do if oneself brings their desires to Father.

Correct action must be taken concerning the things inside one's heart.  Father will show what that correct action is.

Different parts of a person can be utilized to express themselves, and other parts can be adapted to be able to express oneself even further.  This can also be done in one's work.

Ecclesiastes 4:13 -- Better is a poor but wise youth than an old but foolish king who no longer pays attention to warnings.

Psalm 81:9 -- There must not be a strange god among you;
    you must not bow down to a foreign god.

1 Corinthians 6:12 -- "Everything is permissible for me," but not everything is helpful. "Everything is permissible for me," but I will not be brought under the control of anything.

Often the best way to describe something that is wise always seems to come directly quoted from Father's own Word.  In fact, we wouldn't have anything to speak if Father didn't create the means to do so.

A lack of self control is a large warning that perhaps oneself is being governed by a foreign god that is not Father Yahweh, as Father condones self control.

At the same time, not properly taking care of all that Father has provided is a transgression against Father, Herself.  If one's self control brings oneself to the brinks of starvation, and that has been self-willed, then one has stepped off of Father's narrow path.  A part of Father's Way that was given in the 73rd ministry newsletter is to avoid stubbornness and self-will in spiritual things.  One's heart is a spiritual creation.  A while ago, it was noted that to some degree, there is a connection of spiritual things to what is physical.  In this, one must allow Father to guide oneself in all that they do.  Oneself may not be brought under the control of physical things, but they must submit to Father's Spirit.

John 3:8 -- "The wind blows where it pleases, and you hear its sound, but you don't know where it comes from or where it is going.  So it is with everyone born of the Spirit."

As well:

Proverbs 4:23 -- Guard your heart above all else, for it is the source of life.

Proverbs 10:22 - (the footnote) "Or and He adds no trouble to it"  No trouble, as in perhaps that Father's blessing is a gift, and She does not make oneself struggle in the enrichment.  At the same time, can be combined with James 1:5 to show that Father's blessing is also given with all good fruits, w/out criticism or anything to make oneself look down at themselves.  Fully uplifting.

The wording without the above said footnote changes the whole proverb's meaning.

Proverbs 11:3-7.  Righteousness is multifaceted.  Proverbs 11:5 + Proverbs 15:19 = common theme.

Highway is an interesting concept and should be remembered when following Father's Way.

Zechariah 11 + Daniel 7

I wonder if a heart can also be likened to a mountain...  In that, even a person can be likened to a mountain.

Psalm 15 -- LORD, who can dwell in Your tent?
    Who can live on Your holy mountain?
    The one who lives honestly, practices righteousness,
    and acknowledges the truth in his heart —
    who does not slander with his tongue,
    who does not harm his friend
    or discredit his neighbor,
    who despises the one rejected by the LORD,
    but honors those who fear the LORD,
    who keeps his word whatever the cost,
    who does not lend his money at interest
    or take a bribe against the innocent —
    the one who does these things will never be moved.

There is a lot here.  Each word has deep meaning, and there is much "between the lines."

One such deep meaning is honoring those who fear the LORD.  In this, those who fear the LORD are also wise, because the beginning of Wisdom is fear of Father Yahweh.  Then, that can even be extended to those children who, although are so young, are very wise if they fear Father.  If oneself even honors children, there can even be humility.  In this, honoring a child could even extend to keeping one's promises towards them, or helping them with anything that they seek help with.  If a child who fears Father asks a request, or question, for oneself to lower themselves to help the child along shows great love and compassion.

Slandering with the tongue...  Combine that with James 3:1-12.

Moreover, one pollutes their whole self with their words, if they even think them outwards.  Words can come from even thoughts.  Even if oneself thought that they feel okay at first, there is still much more to move forward in.  One shouldn't become complacent.  It does upset to hear that negative speech is "scientifically studied" to help whatever...or for it to ever be condoned.  Yet, it does happen.  If one speaks out of the overflow of their heart, and what one speaks can cause further deterioration or uplifting of their heart, one must be very cautious to see that what they speak is not out of their own heart, but out of Father's Spirit within one's heart, so that it if Father's Spirit that grows.  Again, though, it is not good for oneself to not speak or not think, because that would either to be complacent, or wrongfully afraid.  It stops the good that could be done, and in the error of what one speaks, they should seek Father with a whole and true heart.

Proverbs 10:19 -- When there are many words, sin is unavoidable, but the one who controls his lips is wise.

Faith without works is dead, and if one considers their words to include their works, one must speak in light of Father's faith that is in one's heart.

Acknowledging the Truth within one's heart.  Inclusive of Father, Christ, and all that is really going on around oneself.  As it has been said, things are not just as they seem.

Not harming their friend or discrediting their neighbor.  In this, one's friend and neighbor can also be Father, Christ, and all of Father's positive creation.  At the same time, it includes those who are friends that one may not even know, or those who are neighbors that one does not have any imagination they are close to.  One can discover more about who one's neighbor is given by scripture, especially including what Christ shared here: Luke 10:25-37.

Despising the one rejected by Father.  Self explanatory, BUT, judgment was handed to Christ.  Thus, of those whom are known that are rejected, not included amongst them are humans that are still in the physical plane on the planet at the current time...there is...still an inkling of hope, and even faith the size of a mustard seed can grow to a large tree.  There are commands about certain things, and to those things a person must adhere to.

Keeping one's word whatever the cost.  Thus, even what one says is an oath of sorts.  One doesn't have to have certain phrases ahead of time in order to make an oath or promise, and as such, what one says that they will do, they must.  However, oneself does not know whether they will be able to or not, and so they must base their words on Father.

James 4:13-17 -- Come now, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will travel to such and such a city and spend a year there and do business and make a profit."  You don't even know what tomorrow will bring—what your life will be! For you are a bit of smoke that appears for a little while, then vanishes.  Instead, you should say, "If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that."  But as it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil.  So, for the person who knows to do good and doesn't do it, it is a sin.

As well, there is a sense of nobility and...well...even chivalry...in keeping one's word.  This correlates with the following:

Proverbs 8:6 -- Listen, for I speak of noble things, and what my lips say is right.

Not making lends with interest...one can lend their wisdom and not expect anything in return.  One can provide their coat and not expect another to give it back.  One can give their pens and paper, their very own service, and not expect anything in return.  In this, oneself should be willing to give, and not for reasons.  Just as oneself doesn't have to have a reason to do something good.

Not taking a bribe against the innocent.  Perhaps the first thing that may come to mind is that one wouldn't accept blood money.  However, this would include perversion of justice, or anything else.  Bribery doesn't have to include money.  In fact, a bribe should not even be heard of amongst people.  Yet, it still occurs.  In addition, this does not mean one should or it is acceptable to take bribes against the guilty.  That doesn't make much sense...  There is much more here, and there is a structure, but...I cannot see it as of yet.

There is a structure in this whole psalm, actually...much like atomic particles, and it can go smaller and smaller.  It also can get bigger and bigger, and can be joined with other scriptures to produce...well...more energy.  Mirrors atomic energy...  Father's Word holds all answers.

Living honestly and practices righteousness.  This is similar and can be used in conjunction with not having to have a reason to do something good.  At the same time, being integrable.  Practicing righteousness is also...exactly what it says.  As an infant in Father's Spirit, there is an amount of protection necessary to fully mature, and if one takes a potentially lethal blow, there is protection that must be made to wounds.  In a strong way, the two points are strongly intertwined.

Now, for one to not be moved.  If one lives on Father's mountain, they have the foundation of a rock that can even, in some circumstances, help oneself to be able to weather all kinds of storms and disasters.  It goes further than that, too.  Consider if one lived on the mountain that Father provided the ten commandments.  One would be in utter fear of Father's awesome power on the mountain.  But in that fear, would one be moved in the wrong way?  If they do not hold to their honest living and practicing righteousness, they might run.  In this, to understand Father's Wisdom is to understand what is at the heart of what Father is saying.  This, perhaps, is why Father's Word can be a mystery.  Without Father's guidance, without Her love, righteousness, mercy, patience, Wisdom, and every good thing, scripture won't make sense.  It was noted that a lot of Father's Word is "sketchy on exactly what happens in between one fulfillment of prophecy to that of the next,"  and as such, being able to follow Father's Light to discover the gems of Father's Wisdom and Truth can be just as difficult.

By this, one must also be careful in trying to piece together different parts of scripture.  There might be words that blaspheme Father and say that scripture doesn't...well, it's difficult to even share what evil can be said...  It is known that Father's scripture matches up correctly, and Father's Word correlates all together, like the complete working body of a perfect Creation of Father's.  As such, anything that does not correlate with that Truth is a lie, because anything that does not mix with what is Truth that is known that is True, cannot be True also.  Certain things will make sense "right off the bat", but a person must not lose sight of Father's Truth in one's heart by becoming confused with falsehoods or mismatched pieces.  If one thing doesn't fit correctly, it must not be leaned upon until it seems to fit, or it will fall apart, and oneself perhaps with it if Father is not there to support oneself.  If one seeks Wisdom, they can wait for Father for it.  Hope in Father does not disappoint.

Whenever I eat much, I do not need to eat for a while.  If one overindulges themselves in scripture, they may not digest it in the way that is proper, and may not be able to properly eat thereafter for a long time.

If mistakes that are made are accepted as a part of life, as a part of their creation, it may help them to grow stronger.  However, one must not become fanatical in trying not to make mistakes, as such fanaticism is not good.  Not wanting to make mistakes is one thing, and realizing the consequences for making mistakes is another, but perhaps paradise isn't just what one may all think it is, where every tree looks the same, or every step made doesn't create the possibility of snapping a sharp twig under one's foot.  One shouldn't go overboard not trying to make mistakes, but a person should maintain their zeal and efficiency of growth towards Father.  And for Father.

Father puts certain things in different people's hearts for different reasons, but all are righteous and just reasons.

If it is realized that snapping a sharp thorn under one's foot is a mistake, then one can make a better effort to not do the same twice.  In this, one may start learning to do things that may have only been dreamed about before, such as even being able to simply levitate with their energy over such obstacles.  This, though, would also be to put into reality different other symbolic characteristics that all must be within Father's Will.  Just because a person may be able to levitate doesn't mean that it should be practiced all the time with everything they do.  Proper balance.  One such cause for not levitating all the time could be in the deterioration of the physical muscle mass that Father has provided for usage.  All in Father's Will.

Jeremiah 17:9 -- The heart is more deceitful than anything else and desperately sick—who can understand it?

"who can understand it?"  Father can, I am certain.  However, by trying to delve into that area, and to understand what Father understands, is to try to delve into things that belong to Father, and Father should be the one to mold one's heart, not the oneself doing the work.  Again, it would be like understanding all the inner workings of the mind in how it produces a signal to the heart to pump blood.  If a person understood those things, they could potentially kill what Father has created, even by accident.  There are things that are not within people's control for good reason.

So, by this, the keys to remember include that one must never try to invalidate scripture, or that is like trying to stop Father's prophecies.  What understanding Father has provided is for a purpose and can be helpful, and is good and is what Father believes one is ready for.  At the same time, Father is the potter, and we are the clay, so we must submit to how Father molds us, rather than trying to constantly mold ourselves.  This also being that if we follow with Father's love, and Will, all will come together as it should.  And then, there are certain things that are under Father's control for many reasons, of those included are that they are there as protection, they are so Father's Will can produce a perfect paradise, and truly, it is Father's energy.

On a personal note, so that others may not make the same mistakes, I do need to stop trying to understand things and be able to control things and make them into what I think they should be, or to force things in my heart when Father is trying to motivate me in other ways.  It is cowardly to not follow the direction Father is providing in one's heart, which is multifaceted (which not only includes what one feels, but also what one remembers (as emotions can be tied to memories, and help oneself to remember things a lot), what is seen, and many more things that can continually be delved into and further understood), as a coward really only destroys themselves.  Something to keep in mind:

Revelation 21:8 -- "But the cowards, unbelievers, vile, murderers, sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars—their share will be in the lake that burns with fire and sulfur, which is the second death."

At the same time:

Proverbs 30:18-19 -- Three things are beyond me;
    four I can't understand:
    the way of an eagle in the sky,
    the way of a snake on a rock,
    the way of a ship at sea,
    and the way of a man with a young woman.

To understand what is being said here is more than enough.  To try to reach for them, or try to understand them would be to squelch into Father's territory, which all belongs to Father, and not oneself.  Moreover, to try to go too far would be to try to break Father's Word, and that is a horrible sin to itself.

It is okay to act on certain feelings within one's heart.  It is not okay to transgress willfully against Father.

Something interesting that just came to mind is that a part of being able to follow and adhere to Father's Law is to be able to better remember all of the specific details.  When this is possible, it simply can't be forgotten.

If oneself is full of Father's light, then it is not only their heart, or their eye, but also their mind that is full of Her Truth.  Every part.

It seems that a warning sign in that one has strayed off of Father's path would include a sort of stifling of the Wisdom that comes from Father.  At the same time, a part of having courage and humility towards Father is to take courage in doing things like sleeping on a mattress rather than on the floor.  To have the humility to obey Father even in things that oneself may not think are one thing, but may not actually be.  However, the Truth in all matters, of which one has been gifted with, do not change, and must be adhered to.

An individual is responsible for what they say.  There can be forgiveness, but in that, one should be further careful in what they say in regards to the love they are shown.

Matthew 12:36 -- I tell you that on the day of judgment people will have to account for every careless word they speak.

Also, Matthew 18:21-34.

Things within Father's Word should be pondered, not outside.

Proverbs 5:15 -- Drink water from your own cistern, water flowing from your own well.

Also:

Proverbs 25:26 -- A righteous person who yields to the wicked is like a muddied spring or a polluted well.

Matthew 5:40 -- As for the one who wants to sue you and take away your shirt, let him have your coat as well.

Proverbs 22:24-25 -- Don't make friends with an angry man,
    and don't be a companion of a hot-tempered man,
    or you will learn his ways
    and entangle yourself in a snare.


It often seems the best way to put things is within Father's Word.


An individual pollutes themselves by allowing themselves to accompany those who are in activities of lawlessness.


Luke 21:34-36 -- "Be on your guard, so that your minds are not dulled from carousing, drunkenness, and worries of life, or that day will come on you unexpectedly like a trap. For it will come on all who live on the face of the whole earth.  But be alert at all times, praying that you may have strength to escape all these things that are going to take place and to stand before the Son of Man."

Romans 16:17 -- Now I implore you, brothers, watch out for those who cause dissensions and pitfalls contrary to the doctrine you have learned. Avoid them;

1 Corinthians 5:11 -- But now I am writing you not to associate with anyone who bears the name of brother who is sexually immoral or greedy, an idolater or a reviler, a drunkard or a swindler. Do not even eat with such a person.

This is slightly on a different note, but still intertwines with the above:

James 4:4 -- Adulteresses! Do you not know that friendship with the world is hostility toward God? So whoever wants to be the world's friend becomes God's enemy.

Also:

1 John 4:5-6 -- They are from the world.  Therefore what they say is from the world, and the world listens to them.  We are from God. Anyone who knows God listens to us; anyone who is not from God does not listen to us. From this we know the Spirit of truth and the spirit of deception.

The above scripture goes along with Proverbs 25:26, in that listening can also be considered yielding.  If a person yields to Father's Word, they yield to Christ, and by that, also yield to all that Christ has passed down from Father Yahweh.

Trust in Father to direct my heart.  Do not do things to purposefully hurt myself.  [Extremely ascetic practices can do so...including fasting.  And fasting can be destructive.]  Try to remember and apply all the lessons and knowledge and Wisdom Father has provided.  Do not allow doubt to be cast upon the Truth of matters which are solid.  [Doing so means to be willing to step off of the Truth, which I will have none of, and to be unstable or uncertain, indecisive.  If I make a decision and believe and know something as true in my heart, I must stick to it.]  James 1:8

By trying to consider why I should even allow myself to enjoy food, even in moderate amounts, or in a way that is reasonable and okay, I delve into territory that belongs to Father.  There are limits that must be heeded and realized.  Those limits aren't there to harm, but to help.

Father's Martial Art, in how She would have us fight (not in how Father fights, which is not for us, because there are things that are Father's, and there are things that Father has given to us), is directly intertwined with Her Wisdom that She has shared generously.  All of this is exemplified in Christ Jesus, and all accounts shared in scripture.  In this, one does not seek to destroy, but to seek Father in everything.

This could even extend into every other art, from culinary to medical.  In respect, Father's Wisdom is applicable to all parts of a person's life.

Proverbs 10:3 -- The LORD will not let the righteous go hungry, but He denies the wicked what they crave.

To understand this is to perhaps further gain an understanding for how Father views hunger.

Matthew 6:26 -- Look at the birds of the sky: they don't sow or reap or gather into barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren't you worth more than they?

1 Corinthians 4:4 -- For I am not conscious of anything against myself, but I am not justified by this. The One who evaluates me is the Lord.

Luke 17:10 -- "In the same way, when you have done all that you were commanded, you should say, 'We are good-for-nothing slaves; we've only done our duty.' "

In a severe test, one may consider this:

2 Corinthians 12:9-10 -- But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." Therefore, I will most gladly boast all the more about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may reside in me.  So because of Christ, I am pleased in weaknesses, in insults, in catastrophes, in persecutions, and in pressures. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Father's Spirit guides one's growth in maturity.

At the moment, I kind of wonder if many of the proverbs rhymed in the language they were written in.

2 John 1:9 -- Anyone who does not remain in the teaching about Christ, but goes beyond it, does not have God. The one who remains in that teaching, this one has both the Father and the Son.

Keyword, beyond.  This is a scripture that pertains to staying within the study of Father's Way, and not pondering things that should not be pondered, that which belongs to Father.

If Father is in one's heart, and one's heart is linked to all the other parts of one's body in some way, like via veins and arteries, then one shouldn't be harsh towards their parts of their body, as that would be to be harsh to the environment that Father resides within.  Much less, being harsh towards their own heart.  And if Father encompasses and resides within one's body, one's being, it should be understood that then what one is doing to theirself could be what they are doing to the One who resides in their being.

It was noted that before sin was introduced to paradise, that Father did not need to show Her strict and harsher side.  When Creation is back in full Unity with Father, ...

Where is the line drawn for when a person should continue to be strict and disciplined?

In this, I am reminded of...  Hmm...

If a person has already cultivated zeal and diligence, must they be further required to be strict and disciplined towards themselves?

A lesson given in 1 Kings 12:4 comes to mind.

Father answers and provides the means to find answers.  I believe it was told to us that the Word holds the answers to all our questions.

2 Peter 1:8.  Not only having the knowledge, but also the qualities that come down from above.

Each aspect of the gift that Father provides is a working part of a whole.  One intertwines with the other, and is joined together in love.

Reward, wages, earnings.

Matthew 10:10 -- Don't take a traveling bag for the road, or an extra shirt, sandals, or a walking stick, for the worker is worthy of his food.

Proverbs 19:24 --  The slacker buries his hand in the bowl; he doesn't even bring it back to his mouth.

One who is diligent has the strength to eat.  At least, if that strength comes from Father.

It is sad when a heavy burden is placed on workers for a wage, and then the burden is increased without a wage increase to the worker so that the profit goes only to the employer.  It is as if to encourage an exact opposite of the wisdom given in Ecclesiastes 4:6 -- Better one handful with rest, than two handfuls with effort and pursuit of the wind.

There are a lot of things a person does normally that...perhaps upon reflection...aren't just so normal.

Careful consideration must be taken in what one ponders, especially in reflection.  It isn't good to uproot a good plant.  Nor to call a good fruit a bad one.  Moreover, to ponder things that are of Father's concern, that are things that belong to Father in Her knowledge, not one's own.

One also must not lean upon their own understanding in things they do not have any solid foundation for.

Sometimes, as Father would have it, even having a stomach that is in rest from continuous digestion can be good, even if it feels like it is "hungry."  At the same time, it does not seem good to treat certain things harshly.

Least in the kingdom of heaven... much more to understand.  Even in how Father determines greatness.

Learning Father's view of Creation is to see things more in Her Light, which is Truth.

Perspective, context, respect, situation, references, way of phrasing, attitude, Father's Spirit... [much more to understanding Father's inspiration]

To come to understand someone, you need to draw closer to them?

Proverbs help a person to be more like the One that the proverbs come from.

One who follows another's words also follows the other's path, the other's heart, the other's light.

If one suspects they have become victim to a trap, it is the same as a physical trap of similar magnitude.  Stay calm, pray to Father, endure.  Father does save Her children.

It is important not to take things into one's own hands.  The wrong item may be attacked.  The imbalance may be further imbalanced.  If oneself is imbalanced, how can oneself use theirself to rebalance?  If one is blinded by their ordeal, how can they see the problem?  Stopping and reflecting in Father's Light helps to recognize what is really going on.  For the things that one cannot be certain on, one can certain trust in Father for support, guidance, and help.

If a person is not hungry, should they still eat?  If they do not require coffee, should they still drink it?  When is it that a person requires something?  Snacks seem to satisfy my hunger and help to sustain me, which makes the meals that I have less necessary.  In this, I wonder if snacks are a good idea.  At least, for the current moment and time.  Just because one is hungry doesn't mean it is time for them to eat.

It doesn't mean one should forcefully starve theirself.

In a way, every meal can be turned to a feast.

Every time there is a blink of an eye, the eye might get a moment of rest.  Everything to its time and place.

To study law is to study rules.  Rules can also include limits...lines that must not be crossed.  To learn where one must not cross and stay within is to also maintain the safe limits that Father has provided, to not cross into Father's territory, and to maintain Father's Wisdom, in also having fear of Father that is righteous.

There is a part of a person that may seek to explore and search.  However, obedience to Father is more important.  Desires should be brought to Father, not acted on one's own.  It isn't to seek to decimate the desires to explore, or deny them.

Love can be expressed in more than words from the mouth.  Sometimes fewer words allow for balance in the expression of one's love.

Concerning dance...  As a sister in Christ had noted.  It may be something that just is a part of Creation.

Every proverb can be expanded on indefinitely.  The very sentence that says that if any think they know something, they don't know it as they ought to.  Thus, to read a proverb and think one knows or understands it, means they have deceitful pride.  One should not read a proverb and think such a thing or they bring about a cage upon themselves.  Pride and arrogance are traps.

Proverbs 10:3.  A puzzle piece with parts to itself.  And parts to those parts.  Not to be added to nor taken away from.

Slacker.  [looked up scriptures pertaining to this word]  If one breaks one wise saying, they break each other one.  In this, they also become a fool, in addition to a slacker, a lawbreaker, and many other things.  When the different types of individuals were listed, or different wrongful attitudes, or even the righteous attitudes, they pertain to whole groups, and as such, there really will not be sitting on a mid-point.  One is either on a positive narrow path to Father, or on the wide path to destruction.

How does one read scripture, a wise saying, apply it to oneself, but not receive the pain of such a possible rebuke?  Desiring mercy and not sacrifice.

Proverbs 11:1  The accurate weight begins in Father, and can come into one's heart, and then expressed outwardly.

James 4:10  how does Father exalt those who humble themselves before Her?  It is to invest in Father's Spirit and Her Will by humbling oneself before Her.  Buying gold refined by fire.  One should not feel guilty or shame in following Father's Spirit, even when She directs oneself in activities that may be extracurricular.

Scripture must be read with the right perspective.  Father's Law and expectation for Creation should be studied and applied.  Should be very careful not to even try to think outside of Father.

Focus on spiritual recharge in sleeping, not physical.

Different things have hidden, underlying references that must be seen in order to understand what is being said.  This, too, is a part of speech, and can be dug into much like other aspects of one's speech.

Proverbs 30:16 + Ecclesiastes 5:2  Father is everywhere.  One should be contented with all that Father provides.  Few words ever be needed.  Moreover, one should be cautious in all that is said.  Proverbs 10:19

Ecclesiastes 6:11  Making every word meaningful.

Ecclesiastes 9:10.  It is not that one would pass away as would happen in these times, but that out of all that one can possibly do, do it for Father with all that they can to produce as much as they can offer to Father.  In this, matching it up with a scripture passage in the same paragraph.  All a large jigsaw to be placed together appropriately, and in the right attitude and Way.


There are different parts of a person that can be taken advantage of by evil, if one should allow it.  Otherwise, one should seek Father in all their desires and needs, and Father will provide a pure and decent way towards exercising all their gifts that come from Her.  Oneself must not become confused or disillusioned by their own heart, as their heart can be deceitful, and in that, they must seek Father and keep a full focus on Father in all their being, so that a true light may come upon all their being and expose the truth about what their being really needs and wants.

There have been many things that are spiritual that have been understood in the past by various individuals.  However, there may be great deceptions attached to those understandings that may throw a person totally off.  A person who studies those different things should exercise great caution in delving into those things, and be sure to search in scripture, Father's Word, in order to tell the Truth from lie in what has been learned of in the past.  One item that has been taught is how alchemists understood that the energy properties of an item can be altered...such that even lead can be turned into gold.  However, although I am not sure of the falsehoods attached to any of their other beliefs, I think it would be a good idea to realize that certain things do not change into other things for a good reason.  Another understanding is about the chakral meridians in a person's being.  There are different facets of a person's being, and different energies and emotional things that go through a person's being, but the other beliefs that the yogis and other researchers of the field might be convoluted with further lies, such as false deities.  There are even colors attached to the chakras, as can be seen in chakra recharge charts.  There are still many spiritual things that are difficult to comprehend at the moment.

Something that just came to mind now is in the exercise of different aspects and muscles of a person's being.  Some people are very sensitive...psychically.  Others are very analytic.  Further, emotional.  Different talents.  Some are better at some things, some have certain things that come naturally.  Yet, people are not restricted to practice the good things that Father provides.  Although a person may not be naturally talented in a certain practice, it does not mean that they can't try to grow in that area.

How does a person not laugh at something that is not actually laughable?  One concept is in perspective, in seeing that the said joke is not actually funny.  Another is in attitude, in how one is currently set to receive certain messages.  Further, if one is susceptible, at that certain time, to the influence of another's attitudes, that may be another difficulty, in that, a person's attitude of laughter can be spread to others just by the energy given by the individual.  It's a multitude of sensory receptions.  It is not easy to respond in a way that is reasonable to one who makes a joke.  A person doesn't want to ruin another person's...joy...yet...if another person's joy is based upon something not actually joyful...perhaps it wouldn't be good, at all.

There are repercussions for not going along with the flow of a social situation.  It is said that a person can't please everyone all the time...  Thus, it would be advisable to be pleasing to Father as close to all the time as possible.

Answer questions with beneficial nourishment, reply with questions to questions that do not help guide a person down a fruitful train of thought.  Steer away from oneself and guide towards Father all trains of thought.

An advantage for the land in every respect is a king for a cultivated field.  [Ecclesiastes 5:9]

Study law and Way of Father to learn about oneself.

What is written that is beyond oneself should not be broken, nor sought or it would be to seek to break the Truth of what Father inspired in Her servants, ie: Proverbs 30:18-19

One account of Elijah, and how a flame was still ignited amongst water soaked logs, it gives rise to the concept of one's heart, in being cleansed and being lit aflame.  What Father has willed has come to pass, will happen, and will continue to happen.  Father is truly at work, and rests when it is appropriate, as well.

There have been certain understandings for certain things that are spiritual in nature.  However, one must be careful that one's understanding does not get convoluted with lies concerning things they either do not know, remember, or understand.

A battle may very well be won before it is fought.  Given preparations and plans.  As well, there may not be enough time to react to a first strike, and if the first strike is a deadly one, the battle is already over.  The movement of an enemy is also more than likely to be maintained, unless perturbed, or disrupted.  Moving adjacent to an enemy's movements will take one out of their enemy's focus.  Being able to know what the enemy plans to do can help them to prepare to react appropriately.  Father always provides.

Scripture must be read with the right perspective.  Father's Law and expectations for Creation should be studied and applied.  Should be very careful not to even try to think outside of Father.

There are boundaries to which one's mind should stay within.  And there is more than enough within those boundaries to continue to learn and grow in.  Father sets the boundaries.  Father is our Way, our Truth, and our Life.  Christ mirrors Father.  It is easy to be led astray thinking and pondering things that are outside of Father's Truth.  It is easy to lose one's mind thinking and pondering about madness, because in that, they might absorb what madness emanates.  We have plenty to consider that Father has provided to consider.  Things that Father thinks on are Father's.  One's desire to explore or learn should also be placed in Father's hands.  As it is written:

Proverbs 19:22 -- A man's desire should be loyalty to the covenant; better to be a poor man than a perjurer.

Dictionary.com -- perjurer:

Origin:
1475–85; < L perjūrāre to swear falsely, equiv. to per- through, i.e., beyond the limits (see per- ) + jūrāre to swear, lit., to be at law, deriv. of jūs  jus

"Beyond the limits"  It is very important to understand the words used in scripture.  It is better to be poor, than to go beyond the limits.  It is better to stay on the planet that Father has provided, as we do not belong up in space and is Father's territory.  We do not belong on the moon.  Limits are set, and may grow, but limits are there for good reasons.

Therefore, anything that is of the covenant should be in one's desire, where one explores.  If one's loyalties go outside of that, their loyalties are shown to change.  A change in loyalty away from Father is evil.

Loyalty:

1.     the state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations.
2.     faithful adherence to a sovereign, government, leader, cause, etc.
3.     an example or instance of faithfulness, adherence, or the like: a man with fierce loyalties.

Hmm...  Something about the big picture in Ecclesiastes seems to be what is good for a person, regardless of the amount of time spent.  This can be combined with the concept that Christ had illustrated in a servant who is faithful in small things is also faithful in large things.  If a person is loving in small things, they are also loving in big things.  It is an interesting concept.

If the short amount of time one spends on this planet during the few days of their lives is spent wisely, lovingly towards Father, also with fear of Father as our Holy Father, and lovingly towards our neighbors, then that being the example of a short period of time can be an example of a long period of time.  At that, with the ability to continue trying to grow and apply all the lessons one learns all the time.  Being Christ's footstep follower.

If a person has faith the size of a mustard seed, it can be grown to be also faith the size of a large tree.  It is a very interesting way of seeing things, as well.  A small sign can make a big difference.

As Father can see the beginning from the end [Isaiah 46:10], and the following also applies, 2 Peter 3:8, it can be seen that Father's perspective on things is quite unique, and Father continually provides further opportunity to learn and grow to understand and also take part in further aligning our own perspective with that of Her own, which is the Truth and Light of all matters.

When ministering, especially in matters of the Truth (which is in speaking of everyone and everything), provide nourishment for all questions, answer questions with questions for those questions that would not lead in the right direction so that the questions might lead in the right direction, and keep the focus towards Father and no other source.  In this way, the Truth is focused upon, and not one's own self, nor in giving glory and praise to any being other than directly to Father, whom is our Father.

Ecclesiastes 11.  Fleeting and futility does not equal be sad about it.  Or for oneself to be taken aback or depressed by the futility and fleetingness of the things around them.  There are things that seem to be that one should be sad about...but the futility of things or how quickly things may come and go do not seem to be on that list.

On a more personal note, the things that I have been more sad about are the same things that this chapter of Ecclesiastes has said that one does not have to be, and in that...not to be.  Yet, I am not sure...  That is, I am not sure how to accept the futility of things.  If there is anything that I have sought, I know I have sought things that are truly of value, that do not deteriorate over time, that are permanent and true and real for all time.  Based on Ecclesiastes, though, even that can be a futility.  It is difficult to consider, though, because it means that there are very few reasons to be alive.  Yet, Father has placed it in our hearts to live, and want to live.  If one was not bound by laws that governed whether they would live or die, then no matter what oneself did, what would seem to matter most is what brings happiness and fulfillment in everything they do.

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Something I had not considered before was that even if a person is poor in finances, they may still be rich in Father's blessing.  At the same time, a person who is rich in finances can be rich in Father's blessing, and a poor person in finances can also be poor in Father's treasures.

Should a person who is, say, a millionaire, go off and give away all their money and become poor and live amongst people as a homeless person?  There is an excess in physical things, and there can also be an excess in the lack of physical things.  The balance does not lie within what one thinks of their own self, but by what Father Yahweh sees in all things.  One must be very prayerful towards Father in all these things, because money, itself, is idolatrous, and can snare a person who is not careful to stay from it.  Really, the whole scheme seems to be setup just to snare or enslave a people.

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Father has given people Free Will for a reason.  To discover that reason is to also discover Father's knowledge, to discover Her view points on Free Will, and to learn and perhaps also to come to understand Father's own feelings about Her own creation.  In this, to come to further understand Free Will also means to come to further understand a gift that comes from Father, Herself.  That is, a part of Father.  In this, the only way to come to understand Free Will is only through Father, by Father, and from Father.  Otherwise, one will not truly come to know Father, nor will they further possibly understand themselves.  If one does not further understand themselves, they may be more susceptible to those things that target oneself in areas that oneself is not familiar with.  Of course, this can span beyond oneself and into things infinitesimally large, because there will always be more to learn about oneself.  This, in itself, means to further depend on Father, and love Father, because Father has already foreseen that Her children will make mistakes, and has provided a way to not only keep from making mistakes in the future, but also to learn from mistakes.  At the same time, one must be diligent not to willfully make mistakes, either, because that is a horrible transgression.

Maintenance of lessons passed learned takes remembrance and reviewing of those lessons and being sure to recall those lessons upon a situation that would utilize them.  A large limit of a person's mind can limit a person's ability to apply all the lessons at once, but Father has already provided for a means to grow the mind beyond its normal boundaries.  At the same time, lessons and things are more easily remembered when there are many more triggers to help remember them.  For instance, emotion helps to recall different details in different events and things.  If an event sparks an emotion, and a lesson, that lesson can be reapplied when something else sparks a similar emotion.  In this, there are many parts of a person's being, and a lot to consider in all that Father has provided Her Creation.

It is said that a person learns things and remembers them via visual, audible, and written methods.  I feel that there is more, just based on what was written above.  Perhaps, if something also causes a person to feel something as they learn something, that the feeling also helps to instill that lesson.  On a personal note, I recall more Martial Arts techniques and concepts out of how practicing the art can make me feel at times.  For instance, learning to run up a wall, perform a backflip, hand spring, etc.  All those things cause me to feel...one of those moments.  Performing a well-placed kick, or striking with a jab quickly...all those things cause certain feelings...  An almost, "Aha" moment.  For different people, different things may stick closer than others.  If one likes or enjoys the practice of mathematics, perhaps there are many different things that will stick close to their heart.  This, in itself, helps to show that Love is a very important aspect in a person's growth, because without Father, nothing would stick together in a person at all.

It is difficult to say what is what and what is this or that.  In this, a person may weigh out one hundred pounds of gold, and some may say that that is a lot of gold...but according to what scale?  If the gold were compared to a hundred pounds of radioactive uranium, which could be very valuable due to its composition, the concepts could be very difficult to maintain.  Where is the line drawn concerning the value of things?  Truly, everything is Father's, and oneself can't see what Father can see.  An honest scale is...a scale that is based on honesty.  But yet, does that mean that the value of something can change?  It does not seem that way, because honesty, itself, does not change values, but is truly honest.  The Truth does not change, and if everything that is attached to Truth with Love is unchanging, just as Father is unchanging, then neither do honest scales.  Which also means that the system of supply and demand is...not based on honesty, or the value of things would not change based just on how many people want something or other.  Supply and demand seems to more or less take advantage of people, rather than try to provide for them in full generosity.

There are many things not yet understood.  Not a lot of things yet remembered.  One shouldn't rush, or the roots of their lessons may not take hold.  Yet, there shouldn't be futile laziness, or nothing would grow in its due time.  All in Father's Will for everything.

It is interesting what Father has created.  The deeper I dig, the more is seen, yet...  I also know what I am digging for...what I am digging to find.  I cannot know Father's works from beginning or end.  That is not for me to know.  Yet, I know Father is at the beginning and the end, and it is really Father Who I am digging for.  Whom I am digging to discover more about, and all the while, also digging with Father, in Her energy, with Her Spirit.

Scripture can be incorrectly put together.  The heart is deceitful.  Core values and the meaning of those values must be fully explored.  And maintained.  That is, all of Father's gifts.  As it was said to us before, anything outside of Father's Will is futile.  Thus, everything within and concerning Father's Will and all that Father would have is not.  Therefore, Wisdom, righteousness, justice, peace, love, Truth, the Way.  Father's divine plan and Law for Creation.  Those, amongst much, much more, are not futile.  In this way, the Spiritual War that wages is also of that which is truly valuable, and that which is futile, such that the truly valuable things must be maintained, and that which is futile must be totally removed and never seen or allowed for ever again.

Psalm 94:4 -- They pour out arrogant words;
    all the evildoers boast.

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Matthew 12:34 -- Brood of vipers! How can you speak good things when you are evil? For the mouth speaks from the overflow of the heart.

The pouring out from the heart, gives words.  Overflow...which provides for a concept of...the fact that one's heart overflows with something...  What it may be depends on what one chooses to put in one's own heart.  It must not be a mix, but as much of a pure form that respects and brings together and mirrors Father's Word.

Romans 6:13 -- And do not offer any parts of it to sin as weapons for unrighteousness. But as those who are alive from the dead, offer yourselves to God, and all the parts of yourselves to God as weapons for righteousness.

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Psalm 57:4 -- I am in the midst of lions; I lie down with those who devour men. Their teeth are spears and arrows; their tongues are sharp swords.

This helps to give a concept of where the weapon can lie within oneself, and what one's weapons are.  Even further, what a weapon can be, and what weapons can mean to a warrior.  In this, it helps to define what a warrior is when they use certain weapons, and what all their heart is composed of.

By letting us know of the things going on in the Astral Plane and what the plans are, the following comes true: John 15:15

Different talents allow different things to come naturally to a person.  Those talents can allow a person to take something difficult, and turn it to a form of art.  This is shown in the building of Father's tabernacle given in Exodus all the way through scripture.  Yet, as with knowledge, if one thinks they are capable of a talent, they may not know the talent as it is ought to be known.

The phrase, "love the sinner, hate the sin," does not sit well with me.  It does not go well with the following:

Proverbs 22:24-25 -- Don't make friends with an angry man,
    and don't be a companion of a hot-tempered man,
    or you will learn his ways
    and entangle yourself in a snare.

As well, there are other warnings in scripture not to take the same actions or participate in the same activities as with one who rejects the Truth and goodness of what they are told.

One does not judge another, as there is righteous judgment, in that one does not condemn another, or slander them.  However, that does not mean that one must seek to enjoy the company of another who does not willfully practice good deeds.  For me, to love is to want to draw closer to another.  However, because of the willful practice of sin, a great distance would have to be maintained, as love for Father is first and greatest.

Desire influences multiple senses, and is perceived in many possible ways.  Properly perceiving all the signals comes via Father, as She is the source of Truth and Light.  This comes via pondering, study, prayer, and all good things, especially love, with which to properly apply and join together all the lessons and instill the right attitudes.  It must be understood, as well, that just as one does not have control over how their stomach feels, nor do they have direct control over how their different emotions require certain feelings to remain balanced and properly together.

If one is willing to do good, they do good in Father's name.

Not being overly righteous doesn't mean that participating in evil activity is acceptable in order to "balance" things out.  Small amounts of evil are easily able to tip the scales.  Small amounts of folly and foolishness.  Even a little laughter can be enough, more than enough, and exhausting possibly at small amounts.

Father is the One Who gives and takes, breaks and mends.  Oneself should not seek to do so out of their own will.  There is a time and place for everything, and oneself is not the determiner of this or that; James 4:13-16

There are many facets to the heart, and each part of the heart must be maintained properly or the whole being will falter and decay away.  If one part becomes cancerous, the rest suffer.  At the same time, no one part should be overdone, or exercised too much over the other parts.  If that is done, there is still yet, imbalance.  The quality of one's life can go too far up and too far down, from too active to too little active.  If one's heart is too inactive, they may appear to be emotionless, colorless...not as moist.  Yet, too much can still be too much.  It depends on Father's wish for oneself.  Food that is bland is not tasty, but some foods need not be excessively sweet or salty.  It can be interesting.

And just as one would take care of their body as Father's gift and temple, so would they their heart.

However, one does not take care of things selfishly, but rather, in full generosity and love.

Perhaps studying more on how the sacrifices to Father were made, in how the different parts would be eaten, would help to bring further insight on how one takes care of the being that Father has gifted.

Cutting oneself or causing pain to oneself is an unacceptable practice [regardless of what the attitude or mission is].

Finding proper balance in all that one does is not in what seems okay or permissible.  It lies in Father, as a gift, to know when too much is too much, and too little is too little.  This comes from Father, as a sense one is given when they are merely coming into existence, and even can grow from there.  A parallel to this is in knowing and being able to tell when food is still fresh enough to eat.  One may see and smell the freshness of their food, and then one may also know in their mind how long a food can last outside of a cool, dry environment before it rots too much.

The food metaphor above can possibly also be applied to how one can continue to produce good fruits, and how only producing so much may not be beneficial, as oppose to continually producing.

Something from quite a while ago

I cannot remember the time when this was written, and the writing was attached to a dream I recalled, but I cannot recall all of the dream.  Yet, I do remember having the dream described.

Vatted, so...none could say they have greater or more, each created with beauty, each made significant.  Each a part of a greater purpose, function and cause.

Father has been active, very much so, through Her servants.  Her servants and slaves are extensions of Her Will, of Her very self.  If, for any moment, wisdom ceased to inspire, Her servants would not be able to work, and thus, Her all around network would stop showing their light, and it would be very obvious even on this side of the veil.

We pray in Christ's name, our mediator.  There will come a time when we each must stand on our own merit, when Christ will not mediate for our actions.  This means that this time, as we pray in His mediation, we are asking with Him as our support; as our own self, rather than who we are at the moment.  The sacrifice in the testaments meant that the sacrifice covered for us, and so Christ's sacrifice covers for our imperfection.  This is symbolic in being Christ's footstep follower.  Because we must try to mirror Christ while at the same time ask for forgiveness under His Ransom Sacrifice.  It does not make sense to ask for a cover sacrifice that does not match us.  Much like offering an unblemished sacrifice, but then going back off and sinning on purpose.  How can an unblemished sacrifice cover for a sinner who does not at least try to mirror the sacrifice?  If the sacrifice covers for the transgressor, then it is as if the sacrifice were made in place of the transgressor.  Nevertheless, this does not mean that it makes any sense, either way, for one to make a sacrifice and then go and willfully sin.  It recrucifies Christ, and defeats the purpose, which is to come closer to Father, and come back to Unity, among other reasons that cannot be counted.

Here are some things that came to mind along the ride to and from various places on a trip with my mom this morning and afternoon.

2 Peter 3:9  Delay in Father's eyes.  Delay is not in holding out, but allowing everything to be just right, all at the right times.  This might help oneself to learn about godly patience.

Father would destroy the work of one's hands if one doesn't fulfill their vow.  It would cause Father to become very upset with them.  [here comes a question that is more on the side, rather than a straight forward, straight to the root cause question]  Is it that the unfulfilled vow symbolizes something?  [pretty bad...just rereading some of this...]  One broken vow breaks all of them.  One must be especially careful in all their words and thoughts.  It symbolizes broken love.  If one vows for anything, it should be by Father's plans, that what Father has planned will come true, and that one is in Unity with Father's heart on Father's plans for all things.  I really should stop asking questions about things that are right in front of me, or looking at one thing or another when what is right in front of me is right there.  To find the core.  The focus point.  Father's vow helps to produce hope, and hope in Father does not disappoint.  Romans 5:5  Father vows out of love.  Father does not delay Her love.  One should not give their love grudgingly, should not delay their love, should not be afraid for their own self when expressing and exploring their love, that is, Father's implanted love in one's heart.  The more one explores, the more there is to find and discover.  The more one may focus, the more focus may expand and refine.  One is also obedient to Father in everything.

Godly obedience.  Exodus 15:26  One may think it is written more than once, but godly obedience is also deep and multifaceted.

The mouth of the righteous one is a source of life.  In this, everything one says should come from Father.

Father will humble oneself, one does not, and should not, act to humble themselves, or they may imbalance their humility.  To everything a time and place, to each thing, a purpose and a time.

A stump whose core rotted to a small pit, and a stump whose core grew/grows a new tree.

Another humbling concept is in seeing how one doesn't actually know something.

A language and words can be understood from the heart.  Father's confusion of the language and then how language "changes" over cultures and society is also symbolically tied to the heart.  Language acts to communicate information and details.  Overflow of the heart.

It wouldn't be wise to take something apart without knowing how to put it back together.  The Word is a reflection of Father's own heart.  To continue to piece together Father's heart takes gentleness, love, and every good and true thing.  [This includes Father's very own Spirit]  Not one part missing, and I really cannot imagine taking apart something so beautiful and wonderful just to "learn."  I am sure there will be better ways to learn about each of Father's facets of Creation without having to take them apart and dissect them.  What one puts together in Father's Jigsaw, one should not take apart, as those things put together can only be together if they fit.  One should not doubt what Wisdom has been put together.  Nor what Wisdom has put together.

[The following is mostly a personal assessment about tears]

There was something strange about tears...  It is a great sign of emotion, but the interesting thing is that it is normally...at least in the manner of which I was raised with...to be seen as more of a weakness, or a feminine thing that only girls do.  It's strange, though, because the word "tear" can have two different meanings, and even if either definition is applied in scripture, it can almost still have the same effect.  To cry tears, and then to tear in removal and exposure.

I am not sure if this would be the same in Hebrew, in its original form.

Now, the strange thing about tears is that they can be from grief, sorrow, or any sorts of emotional pain, but at the same time, can also be of joy, extreme emotions...  Different people can have different methods of expressing emotion, and perhaps there are different barriers or thresholds for different people for which tears may start coming.  Those thresholds are there for a purpose, and...perhaps people do not have complete control over those things.  We are creations...so...there is definitely a reason why one person will cry over more sensitive things, while it may take more for another to have tears.  Sensitivity to emotion seems to be a large factor.

It is interesting that tears are...saline...according to a couple sources.  Salt and water...  And that they come from the eyes, and serve more than one purpose, that being, to help keep the eyes moist, and a physical expression of emotion at certain levels that it is felt in each person based on how they were individually created.

Perhaps it is always best to come to a better understanding of different expressions and such in different people.  That way, an incorrect assessment of a person's expressions would not be exacted.

Hmm...  In scripture, a search for the word "cry."  Interesting that a cry is not only in sadness, or maybe joy, but there is even a battle cry.

Psalm 56:8.  Interesting that Father has a bottle.  Interesting that Father records them.  Yet, interesting as well that these tears may not be just emotion from one side, but another.  Interestingly enough, though, they are all recorded.

In one's own having been created, also remembering this lesson: Romans 9:20 -- But who are you —anyone who talks back to God? Will what is formed say to the one who formed it, "Why did you make me like this?"

Father gives Free Will, and with that, many gifts for which one can do with their own being.  To properly utilize the expression of tears is a great gift, indeed.  To also be able to understand them as a part of Creation, is also Father's gift.  And the Wisdom for each part of Creation, a gift of Father's own self, as well.

Simple proverbs of one sentence are like droplets of honey to one's tongue.

James 2:13.  One who is under judgment that is shown and given mercy is taken outside of judgment.  Thus, James 2:13 is quite a concept.  One who judges is judged, one who gives mercy receives it.  Fair.  It almost looks like there is a structure of...checking a design's integrity.  That is, a structure of judging.  However, having and showing mercy is like totally overflowing that structure with a living water.  It's like a cup filled with mercy instead of wrath.  It deeply makes me think of how Christ played a part in helping to bring more wine to a wedding banquet.

James 2:20-22.  What perfects one's works?  What perfects that which perfects?  Father is in each part of the whole process.  At 2:13... it is interesting that judgment is overcome by mercy.  It's like judgment alone is not desirable, but when mercy is added, it totally overcomes judgment and replaces it as needed, as part of Father's plan in Creation.  Makes me think of how a chemical can be added to another to change the complete properties of the whole formula.  We also know that after a period of time, mercy for breaking the Law will not be available.  Breaking the Law won't be acceptable.  [As this is true because one would be breaking Father's heart, and love does not do that]

Song of Solomon 7:10 + 1 Corinthians 7 = ?

Judgment has freedom of action unless there is something greater that hinders it.  Sound familiar?  Many parallels.

Judgment, such as that of Armageddon, is not an act of love.  Mercy is a facet of love, and therefore capable of all the synergistic strength that comes via Father's structure for Her positive Creation.  Perhaps that helps to conquer over judgment, as love conquers all.  Not to say that judgment is wrong or evil, no more than Father's Law given to Moses.  Rather, it is what is left if there is no valuable treasure there after the furnace of affliction creates purification, or if Christ comes and sees His slaves asleep.  Waste material discarded from a purifier is treated as such.

James 2:13 + Ecclesiastes 1:15 [<-study more]

If there isn't even a seed of love, judgment and all that is included in that is what is left.  Can't count 0 of something.

James 1:3-4; Romans 5:3:4.

There are many parallels in scripture that are very important to consider.  1+1 = 2, and A + A = 2A, and A + B can equal C, given various constraints, also considering whether C already had a value given to it by something further, where A + B does not equal C if A and B are not constituents of C.  This mathematic concept can be seen in scripture, in pairing the right or wrong scriptures, and seeing what one may obtain as a result.  If one already sees that the pairing of A + B equals something that does not match with a term already defined as C and does not make sense with the other parts of scripture, then perhaps it is a mismatch of Father's Great Jigsaw.  This does not even get into powers, logarithms, and derivatives.  And that math is not the limit, as there is still yet math that is to be discovered, and I know even that math is continuing to be expanded and explored.

There are so many things to be explored in just one area of Creation.  A dot isn't just a dot, and nothing is just what it seems.  1 Corinthians 8:2.  Then combine this with 1 Corinthians 13:8.  If the combination of scriptures do not make sense, and one seeks the Wisdom in them, they may seek and pray to Father, and the following will come true according to James 1:5 -- Now if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives to all generously and without criticizing, and it will be given to him.

Giving generously without criticizing is quite a concept, especially of love.  It also shows there is giving without grudgingly doing so.  And there are many more parallels with this one scripture, and other parts that can continue to help map out quite a tunnel of treasure that lies deep in scripture.

Only one last thing, for now, is that it is easy to go overboard digging into scripture.  One will find rare jewels and such sweet and without any end of praising words to describe the wonderful delicacies that are hidden by Father, as they are parts of Father, Herself.  It is easy to go too far, and one should be cautious not to grow too fast, but allow the roots of what they have to grow and take hold.  It isn't good to lose what is given to oneself, so one must be cautious.  Especially that which are parts of Father, Herself, which is Father's love.

Something that may not be simply understood about how one sleeps is that one is actually recharging their spirit's energy as they sleep.  This occurs, I think...while one's energy spends time on the Astral Plane in dream state.  This came to mind concerning how I have been sleeping incorrectly, and how I can actually feel totally fine with very little sleep, yet, still keeping my body in shape.  The feeling of fatigue between the spirit and the body is...intertwined.  If the body goes on for too long without proper rest, it seems that a whole bunch of things get slowed down.  At the same time, if the person's spirit does not get the proper recharge, it will continue to try to press a person more towards literally falling asleep more so than to stay awake.  In that way, a person can have too much rest of their body and not enough of the spirit, but at the same time, vice versa.  A person should be more careful about that aspect, in that this can lead to a much larger imbalance within themselves.  At the same time, the physical self should not be allowed to have any strength over the spiritual self, such that sleep is only performed for the recharge of the spiritual self, and one should awaken their physical self as well, regardless of how they may think they "feel" upon waking up.

Something else that has come to mind is about how the spirit is also very closely intertwined with the different physical organs in the body.  Thus, if the spirit is in need of recharge, the organs in a person's body will be similarly drained, which can cause what might be seen as a decrease in the body's metabolism.  If the chakra meridians and all other aspects of a person's spirit are more in line and in tune, as well as balanced, and the flow of one's spiritual energy is in sync with Father Yahweh's manner of balance for all things, then a person may be less apt to be sick, feel better, and everything about the individual may be increased in efficiency all over, such that it doesn't take long for a person's body to adapt to physical strain, such as exercise, amongst other things.

It is also realized, in this, that there are many things about a person's chakra meridians that are dependent on others to stimulate properly.  In this...  The unconditional love aspect of one's heart meridian requires others to love.  If this is...hindered because of one's own thoughts or reasoning, the heart meridian incurs sickness and pain.  If continually ignored, it can become worse, and lead to self destruction.  At the same time, this can occur with any other meridian, and one area lacking can cause a further deterioration of the whole being.  There can be a bad imbalance amongst it all.  Fortunately, Father doesn't allow for Her servants to just be annihilated left and right due to a lack of solution to their heart's desires...which is multifaceted.  One should never seek to fulfill their own desires out of their own choices and solutions, but fully wait for Father for any solution to any desire they may have.  And endure doing so.  Otherwise, one may only seemingly satisfy their desire, but they really won't be, and only continually transgress against God, as well as just create imbalance within themselves.  Sin creates imbalance.  Period.

My shame created an unloving hate towards my own heart, which is not pleasing to Father.

The demon was able to perform the same work the video games did.  Falsehoods, false feelings, all energy.  All illness.

The demon could hear my prayers if it had the ability to touch me and read my mind's thoughts as they formed inside.  That's why its lies came through.  That is also why it was easy for it to deceive me when it did...but that also means...that every other time I thought I was receiving a thought injection of a response in prayer, it was actually not.  It sure has tried to obscure things.  Or is this something that had just recently developed?  I know for certain that I was provided beneficial things that had not trapped me, but only set me free.  Therefore, rather, the demon seemingly found the pattern that was utilized to communicate with me in prayer, and thus, does the same thing to try to control me.  I am not sure how long it has been able to do that, but I know the good things that have come.

1 Corinthians 13:6  The truth.  It is how two who truly do love each other can truly fall in love with each other.

The things the demon is able to do are unnatural, just like my sleeping habits, and other bad habits.  Yet, the current system of the world may not so easily allow for that.  Possibly also why they are more able and apt to take advantage of me while I am driving, too. I do need to heartfully pray for forgiveness for those things, though.  Not that it will stop the molestation, but, ... it is all a transgression against Father that I have not properly prayed concerning.

Not all things need be said at a particular time.  Not all things need be heard at a particular time.

Hot tea or cool water are retained in the mouth and produces a pleasant change.  Luke warm water doesn't provide a change to the temperature for Father's mouth.  Perhaps more helpful in concept of Revelation 3?  Definitely seems so, as it says that it is wished that one is either hot or cold, not lukewarm.  The cold part didn't make much sense, till considering the cool water.

There must be a way of not sharing things others are not prepared for.  Yet, one can just write it all out and place it somewhere to be read in its own time.  Just like scripture.  One should just read it all from beginning to end and think they have absorbed all that they can.  It is a continuous learning and gathering process to put the Great Jigsaw further and further together.

It's bad to cut at a good desire.  Yet, Father does not allow oneself to be heart sick if one allows the good desire to continue.  However, one must be careful what may be caused out of the lack of fulfillment that may occur.  This being, a desire to hang out with friends and be mutually strengthened.  If one is drawn away, they might allow themselves to commit sin in hanging with the wrong crowd.

It will not be that I am secluding myself, but rather, that I am just going to be in a different place.  It is not avoiding a group of people, it is just in not choosing the same path.

Another strategy evil uses is to nag.  Only by totally cutting it off does one escape it.

The goodness in a person's heart could be attempted to be isolated by others like one would isolate a colorful bird.

Faith in Christ is important in walking like Christ, because this is also faith in the Way, Truth, and the Life.  There is also much more.

There was the desire to look at the news for interesting articles again.  It wasn't destroyed, but...I am not sure what it is really seeking.

One must be careful in that evil can stimulate one's mind in ways it shouldn't normally.  One should also not be too distraught over the things they are not strong against, yet.

I now even find myself thinking of going back to Best Buy to work and hang out and chill.  I must not just kill the desire.  It'll be what it is.  The desire, itself, seeks camaraderie perhaps.  Not a bad thing.  They way it finds its way to think of a solution is...no good, though.  [Perhaps there is a way to keep a desire as a desire, rather than as a thought in order to satisfy the desire]

If one does strike at one of their own meridians, they could actually slowly kill themselves.  The heart meridian being linked to developing disease fighting cells is a deep concept in itself.

The seven meridians theory suggests that the heart is actually faceted at seven points that go down one's nerves.  So when one guards their heart, they guard their whole being.  Pressure points and reflexology also seem to also help provide information on these concepts.

To clear oneself of one's abominations.  To be cleansed of it regardless of how it makes me feel, with or without.  Not ignoring the pure things that are clean, but being sure that abominations are swept out and that the Truth is focused upon, so that love is truly practiced in all of one's being.  It is not by feeling or knowledge, but purely by Father, Herself.

Jeremiah 17:9 One's whole being is sick based on the chakra concept.  There certainly is no happiness without Father.

One's chakras are recharged by absorbing colors...  If one is pulled far from the influence of their own chakras, they may be mellowed out, and maybe have low movement or flow of that energy.  I wonder if one's favorite color is likened to a particular meridian based on a particular meridian's said color that oneself is more apt towards acting on, being influenced by, or has a preference for.

Just studying Father's Law that She had provided for the Israelites in the testament helps to provide such wisdom and understanding for why and how Father does what She does in everything.

I told a coworker at my job that I don't have a favorite color anymore, and that I don't listen to music.  Of course, I get songs played in my head often, but it doesn't mean I am listening or paying attention.  A difficult part of it all seems to be in how artless things are.  Colorless, or lacking upbeat life to all of it.  Not so very vibrant.  Shades of gray rather than a spectrum of color.  That seems to come and go...  Sometimes I am really happy and other times I get sad.  Yet...  For the most part, I am just chilling and mellowing out.

The things I think are funny are also the things that seem to be a silly honest answer.  At the same time, I can provide that in a sarcastic, yet still serious, manner.  It's really dry humor, and/or being really smart about things.  I don't totally understand why others may see my personality as serious.  It's actually not as much serious or mature, because I know I have been shown it is not that.  Rather, it's just how things don't strike me in the same way as it might others.  If someone were to tell a joke, and others would laugh, but I don't, it's just because I am not effected by it, and I am just standing back and looking at it.  It's not being serious, it's just not being influenced.  Big difference, and yet, it can be so easily mistook, it seems.  Kind of strange...  Perhaps that is one way the heart is deceitful and correlates with how one's outward appearance can also be deceitful.

If it weren't for Father protecting me even from myself, I might be very sickly and dying, now.  Maybe much, much worse.

One thing a person does seem to become much more of when their different senses have been left untouched or not utilized is to be much more sensitive.

Ecclesiastes 5:6 Messenger?

Looking to the past for understanding, and if oneself should be involved, viewing it objectively rather than subjectively so as to not analyze it in an improper way, manner, or in the wrong perspective?

Do not sleep with a full stomach and much energy to stay awake.

If the demon can touch me, they can probably do other things to me.  [I need to be definitely watchful for situations where the demon can touch me, but I can't tell.  That is going to take extra vigilance]

An immature attitude is not conducive to one's memory of wisdom.  I need to watch that and have a sincere love for Father with a serious mindset.

I need to be careful in receiving any of their thought injections, as they weaken my armor.  Problem is in understanding what Father is trying to show and explain to me, over what the demon is trying to coerce me into doing.

I might want to try to find the patterns of things going on before they occur more than once.

One shouldn't seek to bulk up in fat, or allow that to occur.

Don't sleep at an improper time.  Ever.

The day time is not an appropriate time to sleep.  I asked for a night job, but now I must be sure to heed all the said consequences.

If evil is given an inch, they might take a foot, and from a foot, a whole yard, until every square inch of Father's territory is obtained.  One must be vigilant not to allow evil within an arrow's shot distance.  Or laser.  Or other defensive, high power weapon.  I need to be sure to check by Father's Spirit and all other things, of which Father's Spirit has a say in, which is everything, when I get a certain touch or feeling.  I must be careful that all things match up as much as possible, and that nothing is out of line or not seeming wrong.

A lack of sleep allows me to be slower at things, slowing down processes that need time to analyze properly.  It also enables me to see each thought objectively, rather than subjectively, which may be a bad idea because it could cause more of a rash reaction and perhaps even not see it as well as Father can.

Even demons can mimic oneself being juiced.  One should be careful to not accept that by even testing that.  Even if I don't feel it, Father's love might still pour out and forth.

There really are only two polar opposites.  There isn't a third.

They can hold themselves at a distance and wait for the right moment they feel that I will depend on my heart for something, or some aspect of my understanding.  In all of that, I need to remain in constant prayer and focus towards Father in everything.

It is all only an extended testing period.  That's all.  [I showed I had love for evil.  It is all a very stern and strong rebuke.  There are still many lessons to be learned.  Still a lot to tear down, a lot to build up, and out of it all, to be focused towards Father no matter what.  Father already knew what would come to possibly pass, and tried to warn me ahead of time so that I knew.  My heart, my shame, my very foundation of wrongful attitude...  It is interesting that it is what we love that we are given...if one truly loves death, that is what they will receive, because if they do not love Father, they certain love death.  Because Father, as Christ had said in John 14:6, Father is life]

There was a point in time that I had welcomed rebuke and discipline.  When I prayed for the demon to be removed, I was punished further for more transgression, because the attitude of welcoming rebuke and discipline wasn't being exemplified.  My attitudes seem to be at the core of the issues at hand.  My very heart's perspectives and way.  Not to say that all these things that are being built may not have to be torn back down if something evil was to be found amongst it all, but it would be better to destroy nearly completely and start over with little, than to continue inside a house that would cause my death when it collapses.  My goals should never have been and are not now to remove evil from myself.  That is all truly in Father's hands, as my protection is greatly obvious.  I would probably be dead and without air right now if Father wasn't protecting me from being strangled.

I should focus on the things that I should be doing, and focus on the things I can do, with a proper loving attitude, mature and serious minded, that is humbly loving towards Father.  What I cannot do, Father will help to take care of.  Every time I hear it, I need to block it off.  I also need to be sure that I am not straying off the narrow path by looking at things that will weaken me, getting into trains of thought that are not acceptable, and simply exemplifying the Way in every possible aspect that I know I am every bit capable of.  Father does not make Her servants immature or weak.  Thus, I should exercise each of those things properly, lovingly, and justly.  As is my duty, and more than that.  A true desire for Father.

I need to maintain what I have been taught, regardless of the stumbling blocks.

To note, demons can make a blip or sparkle of light, create "pleasant" feelings as well as painful ones.  Demons are not out of control or all powerful, though.  Staying in Father's protection and direction will help keep one safe in Father's full armor.  Whatever a demon says, don't even pay attention to it.  Lies need not be heeded.  However, there are consequences for deceit, which may be good depending on how the deceit is used, or bad.  All tools the holy side may use may be used by the evil side.

By the way, one of the other things evil seems to continually try to do is bring a person under some sort of control, and/or destroy them.  Evil can't really do anything but destroy.

There are certain constants that I must not allow myself to lose sight of.  The things Father has instantiated and made sure I understand I must not lose, no matter what evil may try to illude my understanding to believe.  Evil will try to overlap the Truth with their own lies and deceit, but Father's Light cannot be concealed by the darkness.  It doesn't even make any sense for dark shadows to be able to absorb the Light.  But if one allows something that shouldn't happen in Father's Creation to occur within oneself, they create an abomination out of themselves that does not belong in Father's Creation.  That much is true in that people are made in Father's image, and likewise, have the ability to create evil and sinful things within their own self.  In that way, they become more and more of an abomination on the outside as they are on the inside, until they transgress willfully, and they must be extinguished.  The process of sinful desire can be stopped, like a building that grows blight or mold or mildew on the inside.  This process was further explained in scripture, given in Father's Law as for what one should do in the case of this occurrence within one's dwelling.  If an evil continues to grow within their household, and the house continues to get cleaned out time and time again, the whole house will have to eventually be vacated and destroyed.  One should see to looking that up in scripture.  It can give oneself a good idea of how Father operates within Her own dwelling in one's own heart.  In fact, it is Leviticus 14:33-57.

If the mildew inside the house comes back after the whole house was replastered and everything, the whole house would have to go.  In that way, a new house would have to be built.  One must always be ready and willing to do any of these things.  It can be forgiven that one has mildew that grows in one's being, as by Father's Ransom Sacrifice through Her Son Christ Jesus, so the pattern of the Law given in the first part of the testament is not something that is to be followed as if one follows the Law, because the full Law cannot possibly be followed and one cannot be justified by it, however, there is still great wisdom and pattern for how Father takes action that one may learn by studying the Wisdom of Her Law.

This is the same with myself, that I am going through...but only one facet.  Simply put, shame and contempt for myself was used to build up humility, selflessness, seriousness and maturity.  The shame had to be removed, and all that glued those values to myself hence went as well.  I am now just about starting out from scratch, learning how to properly cultivate humility in a loving and true way; in a way that lasts forever and bears all burdens.  One must build up correctly.  At the same time, one must be prepared to have to start all over again, even if their house would be a mansion.  It would be better to vacate a house that is going to kill its inhabitants, tear it down and build something better in its place, than to stay in that house and eventually willfully sin against Father and die.

And so, I am, again, at a focus of how I should sleep properly.  Proper times, proper place...proper attitudes and proper motivation for sleeping.  It all has to be that way in Father's eyes.  To tell the Truth, I still have not yet discovered it.  It does not lie in a certain number of hours, it does not lie in the form I sleep, or anything of physical or fleeting nature.  It is all spiritual.  To tell the Truth, I know I don't actually need sleep.  I just get tired, tis all.  Father is capable of things we are truly incapable of, and one need not even eat anything.  They would literally just be sustained by Father's Spirit, if Father would have that.  All that is truly required is that one seriously and undoubtedly follows Father's Spirit, regardless of how horrible one may feel, or anything else of any nature.