Scribblings, Part 1

Here we go...this post will be a ridiculous, nearly ludicrous, accumulation of a few weeks' worth of writing on random paper, wherever I find it.

being right in our own mind is a form of arrogant pride, as it closes our mind from Father, whom even may speak to us through nature and each other.  It also gets us to depend on our own resources, rather than on Father, which closes off our mind form that which Father might shed light on.

We can further learn about marriage by our worship of Yahweh.

----note: this stuff may not be exactly in chronological order...I can't seem to organize my notes in any exact fashion, except by memory, which isn't perfect, either.

What is crooked cannot be straightened, what is lacking cannot be counted, and foolishness is tangled up in the heart of a youth, and the rod of discipline will draw it from them.  The heart is quite complex.  If I make a statement about hearts in general, it's either something that has already been said, or perhaps I might be surprised when something occurs that negates the statement.

Displays of Wisdom honors and gives Father worship.

Though Mother sinned by not executing Michael, if She had, it would have possibly given Mother a bad name, that being that there was little mercy.  Maybe.  However, Father allowed Michael to repent, which allowed for mercy and so much more.  In other words, even though there was sin in not executing Michael, there could have been other bad repercussions.  It shows that there is something incredible about God, even when They act on their heart; as They take incredible action as a result that leads to an outcome that is...incredible (for a lack of better words).  In likeness of Christ, who reflects Father, we all seek to follow our hearts and take the best action that our hearts yearn for.

If this is all suspended in Father's imagination, then all the orderliness of all this is quite a compliment to how amazing Father's mind is.

I had a dream the other night, but I cannot remember it all...  I was hunting, and went down the side of a mountain.  There was snow everywhere.  When I got to the lower part of the mountain, the snow had splotches of yellow from urine marking all over the place.  I mostly dodged the splotches as I trekked through it all.  I think there were also these weird creatures I avoided...I think they were too dangerous for me.  I got to a clear area, without any of the urine markings, and there was this black bear that was injured in its left arm.  It limped around a bit.  As a hunter, and out of pity, I pulled out a black powder revolver to shoot it right in the head and quickly put it out of its misery.  It looked at me, as if accepting what I was doing, and I shot more than once.  The first shot seemed to bounce right off its head, doing nothing.  Being weird-ed out by that, I took another shot, which had the same effect.  I did it once more, only to have no impact.  At the same time, there was this snow wyrm in the background...it tried to attack me, but I was out of range of its acid spit or something...  After leaving the bear to find a bigger and/or better gun, I went to this bald guy and asked him questions...which I cannot remember at the moment.

A romantic relationship without love is nothing.  Romantic actions without love is worse than nothing.

It isn't the facts that are purely the essence of Truth, it is the Truth that one pours out from their heart.  Facts can be a matter of perspective, but Truth comes from the heart.

Coming to mind, now: has anyone noticed how much propaganda about accepting laws for gay marriage has been coming up, as of late?  Maybe it's just me...

Possible Theory to be tested: those you want to be with gravitate toward you, and you, them.  If you don't doubt and open yourself up to a relationship, you may find yourself in one.

The reason why David said he sinned against Father, and Father alone, is because we belong to Father, and as Father is our strength and everything, and thereby we are extensions of Father, when we sin, it is against Father. (thinking of this now, we are also slaves of Father, and in transgressing against a slave, we transgress against the master)

I wonder if it is Father's Spirit that gives us strength to overcome our weakness.  In this, human strength is nothing, but Father's strength is strength.

Perhaps one's heart's desires cannot be satisfied by what another has, which, in realization, is a defense against covetousness.  Realizing that exactly what you desire will be given to you by Father helps with patience.  Seeing that others have something you also seek can make you more appreciate what you are looking for, as well as be joyful for others who have found what they've sought.  Having long-suffering and endurance in waiting for your heart's desires helps make the satisfaction that much sweeter.

If you don't stand for Truth, you'll waiver in everything.  At the same time, if you're concerned about being rejected or how people are going to react, or being quizzed about your faith and knowledge, that's the same as being shaky about standing up for Truth.

If there is anything, a truly dedicated enemy will seek out any weaknesses they can and exploit it.  At the same time, God always has your back, no matter who that enemy may be.

Proverbs 23:1-3.  I think to an extent, this same rule applies in making love.  You're not there to satisfy yourself.  (coming to mind right now...selfishness in a romantic relationship is only a detriment)

Most important thing when dealing with oppression is not to allow your spirit to be broken...it seems...  Otherwise, everything else can be healed and undone.  Allowing your spirit to be broken can distance you from God's healing.

It is not impossible to get to know Father, as Father is everywhere.  We need only take in the essence of His Wisdom, nature, love, and so many more things to come to further understand what it is He expects of us, and seeks in us.  To this end, our relationship with Father is deeper and soulful, and sincere.

The essence of a romantic relationship lies in intimately coming to know your significant other, up to levels that you can sense their heart's feelings even over great distances.  Wonder if this has something to do with quantum entanglement...  Further, the journey of exploring your other's heart is eternal (Ecclesiastes 3:11).  To know what it is your other desires before they have to signal what they want...you won't get to that level with anyone you don't love, nor whose energy you are incompatible.  Good thing we originate from Father, so we are all compatible with Father.

Our relationship with Father teaches us how our relationships should be with others.  A solid foundation of an example to reflect in our interactions with others.  God is love, without Him, we truly don't know what our relationships should be, nor what they can be.

Perhaps part of the reason for the Spiritual War isn't the destruction of physical/spiritual energy, but the decimation of spirits...the breaking of spirits.

Theory: certain evil desires in the heart are due to an incorrect wiring of attitudes and other mental things.  In order to get passed those incorrect wirings, attitudes and such need to be adjusted to correctly allow emotions to flow instead of being welled up inside and becoming stagnant.

Psalm 44:21, Father guards secrets, and may give us what we desire in His own way.  If we want to know about hearts, we go to Father.

Father is our end all, be all.  Even out in eternity, Father is the Law of our hearts.

No part of the heart should be rejected, as Father made it all.  No part should be embarrassed by.  Everything to its place.  Everything submitted to Father.

There are things in creation that are just simply pleasant and fulfilling, like flowers.  It's just the way Father is, there need not be a reason.  People reflect that.  At the core is something that can be appreciated.

The only one that limits us is ourselves.  The steps we take to go beyond our limits is determined by Father.  Thankfully, it is Father Who determines our steps.  The steps Father sets for us are always constructive, supportive, open to expansion...and so many more great things.  Father embodies and defines 'awesome.'

Love believes all things.  Therefore, though the possibility exists that you may be betrayed, you don't believe it will occur.

Father's name...a good name and good reputation are more valuable than jewels.  Therefore, Father maintains His reputation.  There is honor in maintaining your name.

Love does not doubt.  If you are doubting or nervous, you aren't ready for love.  We have a natural drive to want to love and have love, so it takes courage and strength.  Love isn't for cowards.

The most romantic things come as a product of your heart.  You can take pointers from other sources, but like Martial Arts, you take what you are given and mold it around how you would execute the move based on your own self.

The past is gone, the future comes quickly, the present takes a really long time...depending.

Theory: each person has a particular taste for a particular love that they could absorb nearly endlessly, much like there are those who could eat chocolate consistently without getting tired of it.  At the same time, each exhibits a particular flavor.  The one you are with should be one you could wade in the love of, and that being reciprocated.  The best part is: each person is subject to patterns, of which they exhibit different flavors at different times.

Theory: lovers should be on the same page, and words need not be expressed, but simply an emotional connection that is 'psychicly' sensed in order to communicate.  A purely intimate connection to sense the soul of your mate.

Further on the theory of aural flavors, you should be able to enjoy the patterns through which your partner exhibits, and likewise.  This goes into wavelengths and much more.  Lovers should be on the same wavelength and compliment each other's aura.

The more Wisdom is explored in the field of romance, the more sure emotional an foundation a person may have.  Perhaps the more Wisdom is explored in each field, the more solid a foundation they may have in any of those fields.  The more a solid foundation, the more Wisdom attained, the easier it is to sort out right from wrong, good from bad, a potential partner from non-potential.

Perhaps I was right in that women have a more natural affinity for what romantic love really encompasses.  It doesn't mean all women have it or that it can't be ignored/wandered from.  However, what romantic love really encompasses seems more of a feminine essence, than a masculine...for some reason.

Some women expect others, especially lovers, to naturally have the ability to sense their feelings and desires.  Exhibiting body language would almost be too much.  It is an expectation, and though sometimes joked about, I don't think is altogether a ridiculous expectation.

I wonder...as Father is Wisdom and love, do we, in receiving these things from Mother, process those things and create an output as a product of ourselves and what Father gives us?  Does this explain why the answer of the tongue is from the Lord?

Remember, love and wisdom stand on their own, and we should keep our hearts open to it; not taking what we want and discarding the rest, nor perverting what we see into only what we want to see.

We are always growing, so we may or may not be ready for love at any one point.  We may want to build up an amount of Wisdom or anything beforehand, but ultimately it is in Father's hands as to when that becomes a part of our lives.  In this, love is a part of our journey, not a destination.

Don't try to grasp Wisdom, or it will slip through your fingers like water (not sure if this is true).  Cupping your hands and allowing it to flow into your hands would be more advised...Father's Spirit should have free flow through one's heart.

Reading up on history's commanders, it becomes all the more obvious how important it is to be wise.

The heart can't be solely trusted.  However, when the heart shows delight in Wisdom and righteousness, it is encouraging.

Whether something is wise or good cannot be determined solely by feelings, but first by Father, His decrees, and all else.  Then by other things, like fruits.  Good intentions don't always end up with good fruits.

If all you do in a fight is to win by any means necessary, you may lose your humanity.  At the same time, if you don't fight to neutralize evil, you may lose more than your humanity.

You have to make the best of what you've got.  No factors should be left out.  It's better to wait and learn than to be embarrassed by your mistakes.

Any attitude you take on that isn't your own true self will fail.  There aren't any grounds for it to stand.

Love cannot be earned or bought.  Love is eternal.  God puts eternity in the hearts of men (Ecclesiastes 3:11).  Love is definitely mysterious.  Father works in mysterious ways.  Yet, love comes so naturally, and flows within us so naturally.

When you make a vow, it is eternal, and you draw from your heart to speak those words.  At the same time, you can feel in your heart when you will eternally love someone.

One of the first steps to being jaded in a relationship is to take the arrogant pitfall of thinking you know anything about the other person.

You shouldn't seek a romantic relationship until you have a complete relationship with God.

Theory: Self control is still having a presence of mind even while highly intoxicated.  It is also realizing the value of not seeking glory after glory (Proverbs 25:27); in that intoxication over and over is not good.  Time in order to cool down is good, too.

Accepting the love of a spouse acknowledges the fact that you accept the shelter they provide in their love for you.  It is also an expression that oneself is dependent on the love of another in order to be sheltered from the loneliness of eternity (maybe?).

I wonder if part of the reason Father created this reality is because They didn't like the realities others created, and thus did not want to be a part of other's realities.  In this Father could have been a part of other's realities much like Seraiah, Deb, Jesse, & Lia, but chose not to.

It goes without saying that marriage should be about love, not anything else.  Anything else, and you'll be miserable.  A happy wife is a happy life.  A marriage is a larger part of one's life than might initially be thought by myself...  From my perspective in experiencing other's marriages, marriage becomes an integrated part of your entire life, and is not something you have on the side, like a hobby.  Again, goes without saying.  In this, love integrates into every aspect of one's life, and is reflected in their everything.  Thus, it would be advisable that love for Mother, as it is all encompassing, should directly work with one's love for their partner, their family, and even other creations.

Fighting without purpose is dishonorable.  Fighting without a worthy purpose brings no honor.  As it seems, honor surpasses living and dying.  A greater, higher goal than survival in combat is honor, for even if you survive, if you survived because of dishonor, you are actually, in effect, dead inside.  A cowardly sacrifice of oneself to destroy another and save one's body, but lose one's soul.  And if one is also to love God with all one's soul, they can't afford to be a coward.

It may not be good to act on the whim of the heart, but taking the right actions as a result of feelings would be a good move.

Theory:  the genius of proper reaction in combat may exist in one's nature.  If true, it may be refined.  In this, we get a sense for Father's nature as a warrior.