Scribblings, Part 1

Here we go...this post will be a ridiculous, nearly ludicrous, accumulation of a few weeks' worth of writing on random paper, wherever I find it.

being right in our own mind is a form of arrogant pride, as it closes our mind from Father, whom even may speak to us through nature and each other.  It also gets us to depend on our own resources, rather than on Father, which closes off our mind form that which Father might shed light on.

We can further learn about marriage by our worship of Yahweh.

----note: this stuff may not be exactly in chronological order...I can't seem to organize my notes in any exact fashion, except by memory, which isn't perfect, either.

What is crooked cannot be straightened, what is lacking cannot be counted, and foolishness is tangled up in the heart of a youth, and the rod of discipline will draw it from them.  The heart is quite complex.  If I make a statement about hearts in general, it's either something that has already been said, or perhaps I might be surprised when something occurs that negates the statement.

Displays of Wisdom honors and gives Father worship.

Though Mother sinned by not executing Michael, if She had, it would have possibly given Mother a bad name, that being that there was little mercy.  Maybe.  However, Father allowed Michael to repent, which allowed for mercy and so much more.  In other words, even though there was sin in not executing Michael, there could have been other bad repercussions.  It shows that there is something incredible about God, even when They act on their heart; as They take incredible action as a result that leads to an outcome that is...incredible (for a lack of better words).  In likeness of Christ, who reflects Father, we all seek to follow our hearts and take the best action that our hearts yearn for.

If this is all suspended in Father's imagination, then all the orderliness of all this is quite a compliment to how amazing Father's mind is.

I had a dream the other night, but I cannot remember it all...  I was hunting, and went down the side of a mountain.  There was snow everywhere.  When I got to the lower part of the mountain, the snow had splotches of yellow from urine marking all over the place.  I mostly dodged the splotches as I trekked through it all.  I think there were also these weird creatures I avoided...I think they were too dangerous for me.  I got to a clear area, without any of the urine markings, and there was this black bear that was injured in its left arm.  It limped around a bit.  As a hunter, and out of pity, I pulled out a black powder revolver to shoot it right in the head and quickly put it out of its misery.  It looked at me, as if accepting what I was doing, and I shot more than once.  The first shot seemed to bounce right off its head, doing nothing.  Being weird-ed out by that, I took another shot, which had the same effect.  I did it once more, only to have no impact.  At the same time, there was this snow wyrm in the background...it tried to attack me, but I was out of range of its acid spit or something...  After leaving the bear to find a bigger and/or better gun, I went to this bald guy and asked him questions...which I cannot remember at the moment.

A romantic relationship without love is nothing.  Romantic actions without love is worse than nothing.

It isn't the facts that are purely the essence of Truth, it is the Truth that one pours out from their heart.  Facts can be a matter of perspective, but Truth comes from the heart.

Coming to mind, now: has anyone noticed how much propaganda about accepting laws for gay marriage has been coming up, as of late?  Maybe it's just me...

Possible Theory to be tested: those you want to be with gravitate toward you, and you, them.  If you don't doubt and open yourself up to a relationship, you may find yourself in one.

The reason why David said he sinned against Father, and Father alone, is because we belong to Father, and as Father is our strength and everything, and thereby we are extensions of Father, when we sin, it is against Father. (thinking of this now, we are also slaves of Father, and in transgressing against a slave, we transgress against the master)

I wonder if it is Father's Spirit that gives us strength to overcome our weakness.  In this, human strength is nothing, but Father's strength is strength.

Perhaps one's heart's desires cannot be satisfied by what another has, which, in realization, is a defense against covetousness.  Realizing that exactly what you desire will be given to you by Father helps with patience.  Seeing that others have something you also seek can make you more appreciate what you are looking for, as well as be joyful for others who have found what they've sought.  Having long-suffering and endurance in waiting for your heart's desires helps make the satisfaction that much sweeter.

If you don't stand for Truth, you'll waiver in everything.  At the same time, if you're concerned about being rejected or how people are going to react, or being quizzed about your faith and knowledge, that's the same as being shaky about standing up for Truth.

If there is anything, a truly dedicated enemy will seek out any weaknesses they can and exploit it.  At the same time, God always has your back, no matter who that enemy may be.

Proverbs 23:1-3.  I think to an extent, this same rule applies in making love.  You're not there to satisfy yourself.  (coming to mind right now...selfishness in a romantic relationship is only a detriment)

Most important thing when dealing with oppression is not to allow your spirit to be broken...it seems...  Otherwise, everything else can be healed and undone.  Allowing your spirit to be broken can distance you from God's healing.

It is not impossible to get to know Father, as Father is everywhere.  We need only take in the essence of His Wisdom, nature, love, and so many more things to come to further understand what it is He expects of us, and seeks in us.  To this end, our relationship with Father is deeper and soulful, and sincere.

The essence of a romantic relationship lies in intimately coming to know your significant other, up to levels that you can sense their heart's feelings even over great distances.  Wonder if this has something to do with quantum entanglement...  Further, the journey of exploring your other's heart is eternal (Ecclesiastes 3:11).  To know what it is your other desires before they have to signal what they want...you won't get to that level with anyone you don't love, nor whose energy you are incompatible.  Good thing we originate from Father, so we are all compatible with Father.

Our relationship with Father teaches us how our relationships should be with others.  A solid foundation of an example to reflect in our interactions with others.  God is love, without Him, we truly don't know what our relationships should be, nor what they can be.

Perhaps part of the reason for the Spiritual War isn't the destruction of physical/spiritual energy, but the decimation of spirits...the breaking of spirits.

Theory: certain evil desires in the heart are due to an incorrect wiring of attitudes and other mental things.  In order to get passed those incorrect wirings, attitudes and such need to be adjusted to correctly allow emotions to flow instead of being welled up inside and becoming stagnant.

Psalm 44:21, Father guards secrets, and may give us what we desire in His own way.  If we want to know about hearts, we go to Father.

Father is our end all, be all.  Even out in eternity, Father is the Law of our hearts.

No part of the heart should be rejected, as Father made it all.  No part should be embarrassed by.  Everything to its place.  Everything submitted to Father.

There are things in creation that are just simply pleasant and fulfilling, like flowers.  It's just the way Father is, there need not be a reason.  People reflect that.  At the core is something that can be appreciated.

The only one that limits us is ourselves.  The steps we take to go beyond our limits is determined by Father.  Thankfully, it is Father Who determines our steps.  The steps Father sets for us are always constructive, supportive, open to expansion...and so many more great things.  Father embodies and defines 'awesome.'

Love believes all things.  Therefore, though the possibility exists that you may be betrayed, you don't believe it will occur.

Father's name...a good name and good reputation are more valuable than jewels.  Therefore, Father maintains His reputation.  There is honor in maintaining your name.

Love does not doubt.  If you are doubting or nervous, you aren't ready for love.  We have a natural drive to want to love and have love, so it takes courage and strength.  Love isn't for cowards.

The most romantic things come as a product of your heart.  You can take pointers from other sources, but like Martial Arts, you take what you are given and mold it around how you would execute the move based on your own self.

The past is gone, the future comes quickly, the present takes a really long time...depending.

Theory: each person has a particular taste for a particular love that they could absorb nearly endlessly, much like there are those who could eat chocolate consistently without getting tired of it.  At the same time, each exhibits a particular flavor.  The one you are with should be one you could wade in the love of, and that being reciprocated.  The best part is: each person is subject to patterns, of which they exhibit different flavors at different times.

Theory: lovers should be on the same page, and words need not be expressed, but simply an emotional connection that is 'psychicly' sensed in order to communicate.  A purely intimate connection to sense the soul of your mate.

Further on the theory of aural flavors, you should be able to enjoy the patterns through which your partner exhibits, and likewise.  This goes into wavelengths and much more.  Lovers should be on the same wavelength and compliment each other's aura.

The more Wisdom is explored in the field of romance, the more sure emotional an foundation a person may have.  Perhaps the more Wisdom is explored in each field, the more solid a foundation they may have in any of those fields.  The more a solid foundation, the more Wisdom attained, the easier it is to sort out right from wrong, good from bad, a potential partner from non-potential.

Perhaps I was right in that women have a more natural affinity for what romantic love really encompasses.  It doesn't mean all women have it or that it can't be ignored/wandered from.  However, what romantic love really encompasses seems more of a feminine essence, than a masculine...for some reason.

Some women expect others, especially lovers, to naturally have the ability to sense their feelings and desires.  Exhibiting body language would almost be too much.  It is an expectation, and though sometimes joked about, I don't think is altogether a ridiculous expectation.

I wonder...as Father is Wisdom and love, do we, in receiving these things from Mother, process those things and create an output as a product of ourselves and what Father gives us?  Does this explain why the answer of the tongue is from the Lord?

Remember, love and wisdom stand on their own, and we should keep our hearts open to it; not taking what we want and discarding the rest, nor perverting what we see into only what we want to see.

We are always growing, so we may or may not be ready for love at any one point.  We may want to build up an amount of Wisdom or anything beforehand, but ultimately it is in Father's hands as to when that becomes a part of our lives.  In this, love is a part of our journey, not a destination.

Don't try to grasp Wisdom, or it will slip through your fingers like water (not sure if this is true).  Cupping your hands and allowing it to flow into your hands would be more advised...Father's Spirit should have free flow through one's heart.

Reading up on history's commanders, it becomes all the more obvious how important it is to be wise.

The heart can't be solely trusted.  However, when the heart shows delight in Wisdom and righteousness, it is encouraging.

Whether something is wise or good cannot be determined solely by feelings, but first by Father, His decrees, and all else.  Then by other things, like fruits.  Good intentions don't always end up with good fruits.

If all you do in a fight is to win by any means necessary, you may lose your humanity.  At the same time, if you don't fight to neutralize evil, you may lose more than your humanity.

You have to make the best of what you've got.  No factors should be left out.  It's better to wait and learn than to be embarrassed by your mistakes.

Any attitude you take on that isn't your own true self will fail.  There aren't any grounds for it to stand.

Love cannot be earned or bought.  Love is eternal.  God puts eternity in the hearts of men (Ecclesiastes 3:11).  Love is definitely mysterious.  Father works in mysterious ways.  Yet, love comes so naturally, and flows within us so naturally.

When you make a vow, it is eternal, and you draw from your heart to speak those words.  At the same time, you can feel in your heart when you will eternally love someone.

One of the first steps to being jaded in a relationship is to take the arrogant pitfall of thinking you know anything about the other person.

You shouldn't seek a romantic relationship until you have a complete relationship with God.

Theory: Self control is still having a presence of mind even while highly intoxicated.  It is also realizing the value of not seeking glory after glory (Proverbs 25:27); in that intoxication over and over is not good.  Time in order to cool down is good, too.

Accepting the love of a spouse acknowledges the fact that you accept the shelter they provide in their love for you.  It is also an expression that oneself is dependent on the love of another in order to be sheltered from the loneliness of eternity (maybe?).

I wonder if part of the reason Father created this reality is because They didn't like the realities others created, and thus did not want to be a part of other's realities.  In this Father could have been a part of other's realities much like Seraiah, Deb, Jesse, & Lia, but chose not to.

It goes without saying that marriage should be about love, not anything else.  Anything else, and you'll be miserable.  A happy wife is a happy life.  A marriage is a larger part of one's life than might initially be thought by myself...  From my perspective in experiencing other's marriages, marriage becomes an integrated part of your entire life, and is not something you have on the side, like a hobby.  Again, goes without saying.  In this, love integrates into every aspect of one's life, and is reflected in their everything.  Thus, it would be advisable that love for Mother, as it is all encompassing, should directly work with one's love for their partner, their family, and even other creations.

Fighting without purpose is dishonorable.  Fighting without a worthy purpose brings no honor.  As it seems, honor surpasses living and dying.  A greater, higher goal than survival in combat is honor, for even if you survive, if you survived because of dishonor, you are actually, in effect, dead inside.  A cowardly sacrifice of oneself to destroy another and save one's body, but lose one's soul.  And if one is also to love God with all one's soul, they can't afford to be a coward.

It may not be good to act on the whim of the heart, but taking the right actions as a result of feelings would be a good move.

Theory:  the genius of proper reaction in combat may exist in one's nature.  If true, it may be refined.  In this, we get a sense for Father's nature as a warrior.

If one person's presence in a place makes all the difference in aura, atmosphere, and everything else, so much more should Father's in one's own life, as Father is everywhere and everything is made from Her energy, even thoughts.

Further Unity with Father, and a continuous and an augmenting absorption of Father's nourishment and qualities within one's heart brightens and heightens everything around them, including all their senses and their mind.  It brightens their words, heightens their speech, brightens and heightens their eyes (and the sight that comes with their eyes, if their eyes are fully formed and connected, without damage), increases the sensitivity of their senses and ability to sense.

As Father is light, it is no burden to keep Her on one's mind, but rather, a delight.  More, much more, than just a delight.  And especially, at the top of one's mind, at all times.  If Father is the capstone and cornerstone of one's every thought, and/or the foundation and roof of their thought, then their thought will have a solid foundation and anything else that may be associated with such a metaphor, and many, many more.

As well, if thought is used to move arms, speak, and/or other things, and Father is the beginning and end of one's thought, then their movements also have the above said qualities.  And further, if Father guides one's every thought, then Father truly guides their every movement.

1 Corinthians 13:4-6 -- Love is patient; love is kind. Love does not envy;
    is not boastful; is not conceited;
    does not act improperly; is not selfish;
    is not provoked; does not keep a record of wrongs;
    finds no joy in unrighteousness, but rejoices in the truth;

The last line, "but rejoices in the truth."  Something interesting that I had spoken to one person in the past about is how the truth has a certain vibrance to it.  A person can sort of feel it in their heart.  An item that might be pondered is how Father's Spirit rejoices in Truth, how Father is love, how one's heart can house Father's Spirit, and how one's own heart can rejoice in the Truth if in Union with Father's Spirit, and in that way, also with Father's love.

Another interesting concept was about how the center of a person's vision is less apt to adapt to low-light conditions as one's peripheral.  Although the center of one's vision is a focus point for light to be received, it doesn't mean that it has to be slow to adapt to a change in lighting.  It may be a genetic thing, but ... though, genetics are the way they are for a reason.  Perhaps learning a symbolic reason for why this is might be for a another time, but one scripture that seems to tie in with this concept is this:


Ecclesiastes 11:7 -- Light is sweet, and it is pleasing for the eyes to see the sun.

If a portion of one's eyes is full from light, it may take more time for that portion to be rested from it, kind of like a stomach with certain nutrients.

Ecclesiastes 1:8 -- All things are wearisome; man is unable to speak. The eye is not satisfied by seeing or the ear filled with hearing.

On another note:

2 Peter 3:9 -- The Lord does not delay His promise, as some understand delay, but is patient with you, not wanting any to perish, but all to come to repentance.

Father has made promises, and fulfills them.  Christ did not delay his own help.  As Christ's footstep followers, we should learn to do the same.

If a pattern in eating a certain food creates a pattern of bad side effects, it would make sense to stop eating that food.  However, praying to Father for a suitable substitute for the nutrients that would be found in that food that provides adverse side effects might be a good idea.

Furthermore, Father will guide a person's heart, following all the Wisdom that has already been provided, and even in areas that a person may not totally be able to understand or know about, themselves.  Actually, concerning all the aspects of anything, oneself may not be able to tell, because that would be to try to see the beginning or end of something...and that would be a transgression against what Father spoke of in Her Word concerning the knowledge of anything, and in man not knowing the beginning or end of Father's works.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 -- He has made everything appropriate in its time. He has also put eternity in their hearts, but man cannot discover the work God has done from beginning to end.

1 Corinthians 8:2 -- If anyone thinks he knows anything, he does not yet know it as he ought to know it.

So in the things that a person does, they can't totally determine whether or not it is right or wrong except based on Father's Spirit and all that Father has already provided.  If something does not seem to have anything wrong to it up to the senses that a person has, but Father's Spirit guides oneself from it, they should stay away from it.  If something does not seem to have anything wrong with it, and Father's Spirit guides one towards it, and everything including prayer towards Father concerning what is seeming like a course of action to take, it would definitely be good to follow Father's Spirit on those matters.  If something doesn't seem right based on what has already been provided, it must not be followed through with.  All parts will correlate.

So, for example, if there is a dessert that a person can have, and there doesn't seem to be anything wrong with the dessert, and Father's Spirit doesn't guide one's heart from it, but towards it, it's okay.  If oneself is not guided towards the dessert by Father's Spirit, they should stay from it.  If the dessert is an obvious mistake because of its obvious unhealthy contents, Father wouldn't guide oneself towards eating it, and oneself should not eat it.

Just because things seem okay within one's heart doesn't mean that things are actually okay.

There are a lot of mention of different women, figuratively and literally, in scripture.  Quite interesting.  There is a woman named Wisdom.  There is also a woman named Folly.  There are characteristics given to each of the different women, and what all encompasses the interaction with them.  Safety and danger, life and death.  Light and dark.

It is also interesting what the world is capable of doing to a person's heart.  If a person has a natural yearning for something in their heart that is a desire that may be deemed as okay, but does not allow it to go forth due to the Wisdom provided by Father, their heart will possibly become sick.  Painfully.  Depression may ensue.  If there is something that perturbs that desire, it can cause the person's heart to feel okay, and once that desire is not satisfied any further, it is pressed back into heartsickness, and may hurt worse.  But it would only be for a period of time.  Yielding to despair or utter depression is unnecessary, though.

One of the more difficult things in the world is possibly trying to live as a foreigner in it, and still look around and see so much that would cause a person to become very sad.  To realize and maintain a realization that the things around theirself aren't pleasant and still maintain happiness and joy is quite a feat of strength that I think that only Father is capable of, and in that, only from Father would anyone be able to do so.  It is important that oneself not become ignorant and close their eyes so that they can be happy, or try to be (but ignorance does not give happiness), and it is also important that in that Truth, also realize that in Father there is still hope and faith in a better future for a paradise that Father has intended.  The current times in the sinful touch that has been imprinted on creation don't seem to be times to be happy about, but that doesn't mean one's happiness should be destroyed, but rather, that in hope, one looks towards Father for support and strength in light of the situation.

One of the things that I may not be able to put into proper words that have come to mind as a lesson is in following Father's Spirit in all matters.  One's mind can become corrupted, which can make the heart treacherous.  That came from a close brother.  If oneself learns a lesson in their mind, they must stick to that lesson and not let it be corrupted or replaced by something else.  One's heart can naturally have feelings in it, but those things can be used against oneself.  More so, the lessons that come to a person's mind can come together, and some may not.  The things that are evil can also try to make their place in one's mind, and if that happens, and the evil causes confusion to come up in one's mind, it's real dangerous.  In fact, confusion is one of the things that demons will attempt to use against a person.  Or people.  Rebels against Father.  Rebels against Wisdom and Truth.

Oneself cannot rely on their heart's feelings in order to determine whether something is okay, or not, or whether one's situation is okay.  A person cannot rely on their understanding, either.  Simply upon Father, Herself.  This is all encompassing, which includes aspects outside of oneself.  If oneself knows something solid, then it is.  Christ is a cornerstone that Father has provided.  If oneself accepts Father's gift, of which Christ had also lovingly accepted to be a part of, then one's building will also include Christ's teaching, which come from Father.

If oneself listens to evil, as evil can also play on a person's desires, then their conduct will also be against Father.  Aligning what oneself wants with what Father wants is very important.  And if what oneself wants is not right, they can still bring it to Father, and Father will be a Father to the one who shows integrity.

Consider, if what is in a person's heart may cause them to sin, and the person brings it to Father instead of acting incorrectly, wouldn't Father help to heal their heart, as cultivating negativity within one's heart is basically a disease?

Something interesting is that amongst all the desires within one's heart, the love for Father must be top.  It doesn't mean that all the other desires must be destroyed, nor does it mean that a person must act on all other desires.  If there is any desire within one's heart that would contradict that love for Father, then perhaps it is time to really stop and pray to Father and meditate towards Father on what needs to be done.  Sometimes, as it is, there isn't anything that oneself can do.  Father has total control over everything, and as such, one's own heart can be easily molded by Father's own thought.

Something else interesting is the following:

Matthew 5:30 -- And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of the parts of your body than for your whole body to go into hell!

Matthew 12:7 --  If you had known what this means: I desire mercy and not sacrifice , you would not have condemned the innocent.

If a person's heart's desires cause them to sin, it does not mean that they should cut their heart's desires out.  I know that for Truth.  It also helps to answer what Father would do if oneself brings their desires to Father.

Correct action must be taken concerning the things inside one's heart.  Father will show what that correct action is.

Different parts of a person can be utilized to express themselves, and other parts can be adapted to be able to express oneself even further.  This can also be done in one's work.

Ecclesiastes 4:13 -- Better is a poor but wise youth than an old but foolish king who no longer pays attention to warnings.

Psalm 81:9 -- There must not be a strange god among you;
    you must not bow down to a foreign god.

1 Corinthians 6:12 -- "Everything is permissible for me," but not everything is helpful. "Everything is permissible for me," but I will not be brought under the control of anything.

Often the best way to describe something that is wise always seems to come directly quoted from Father's own Word.  In fact, we wouldn't have anything to speak if Father didn't create the means to do so.

A lack of self control is a large warning that perhaps oneself is being governed by a foreign god that is not Father Yahweh, as Father condones self control.

At the same time, not properly taking care of all that Father has provided is a transgression against Father, Herself.  If one's self control brings oneself to the brinks of starvation, and that has been self-willed, then one has stepped off of Father's narrow path.  A part of Father's Way that was given in the 73rd ministry newsletter is to avoid stubbornness and self-will in spiritual things.  One's heart is a spiritual creation.  A while ago, it was noted that to some degree, there is a connection of spiritual things to what is physical.  In this, one must allow Father to guide oneself in all that they do.  Oneself may not be brought under the control of physical things, but they must submit to Father's Spirit.

John 3:8 -- "The wind blows where it pleases, and you hear its sound, but you don't know where it comes from or where it is going.  So it is with everyone born of the Spirit."

As well:

Proverbs 4:23 -- Guard your heart above all else, for it is the source of life.

Proverbs 10:22 - (the footnote) "Or and He adds no trouble to it"  No trouble, as in perhaps that Father's blessing is a gift, and She does not make oneself struggle in the enrichment.  At the same time, can be combined with James 1:5 to show that Father's blessing is also given with all good fruits, w/out criticism or anything to make oneself look down at themselves.  Fully uplifting.

The wording without the above said footnote changes the whole proverb's meaning.

Proverbs 11:3-7.  Righteousness is multifaceted.  Proverbs 11:5 + Proverbs 15:19 = common theme.

Highway is an interesting concept and should be remembered when following Father's Way.

Zechariah 11 + Daniel 7