I used to have this sort of image of a person that I really wanted to be. Laid back, collected, chill. Not only this, though, but a studious, observant, trained and continually training warrior. Further even possibly so dedicated that things of this world would not be allowed to hinder the studies. Instead of playing, I'd be working, and my cool down time was only when I'd sleep, because sleep would be enough. Only ever have I seen that this world and its mannerisms I have allowed to grow in my heart have gotten in the way of this, and only have I seen that Father has promoted that image and that sort of excellence in Her slave.

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I always know that Father always provides. Even if I feel I am not going to have enough, I am always provided more than enough by the time that the week is over. Earlier last week I had the thought and concern that I might not have as many articles this week for the ministry's newsletter, but come time to choose articles for the newsletter, I had more articles to gaze through than I think I have had in a very long time. Size or object doesn't matter, the concept remains the same in everything.

It's such an interesting concept, too, because I remember that Father had said that if we would be concerned about having enough food that Father would provide such a surplus. I know that this was in the old testament with the old law and that it was concerning the year of Jubilee, but I know Father always provides. Everything always seems to point towards the fact that Father is going to take care of everything. There always seems to be such a concern or worry about things, but...perhaps that worry or concern should be further delved into, really...

Consider, if a person is worried about losing their job because then they won't be able to maintain their current way of life, what is that telling Father? There is a scripture about pride in one's lifestyle:

1 John 2:16 -- the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride in one's lifestyle—is not from the Father, but is from the world.

What seems to personally come to mind is that if I ever lost my job and everything I own, I could just as easily survive on the street and use the local library to perform my services to Father. There are food pantries, and all sorts of methods. If one is so concerned about food...why would they be? It's all over the place. I don't totally understand why one might shudder over the thought of having to eat a wild rabbit or the large crickets. Do what you need to do that is best at that current time. John the Baptist survived on wild honey and locusts. That...to a strong degree...almost sounds like...well...a very pleasant lifestyle. Honey is sweet...and locusts are...crunchy. So, if one is more concerned about maintaining their lifestyle rather than to follow the lifestyle that Father provides to follow, as Father also has much symbolism in all Her planning, it just shows that there are still a lot of attitudes that need to be sorted out. Moreover, it may cause Father to have to rebuke oneself. That...is not what anyone wants, I really hope. To have self discipline before Father must discipline might be a better move, because on one hand it shows Father that oneself wants to be proactive and have initiative, which are qualities towards further growth, and when Father must take action, it's...just might want to consider that Father must take action at Armageddon because everything will have gotten way too out of control. Punishment might still be necessary in the case of one's lack of action even if they turn from evil, but Father's punishment is always helpful; destroying what is really bad so that good can come.

Everything always seems to be well covered... Interestingly, there are those that might also look to the stars for signs in what will be happening in their near future. Heh, even stars can be altered in a moment's notice, so one's whole thoughts of what are going to happen all of the sudden would shift without their own realization, except for when things aren't going the way they thought it was. The most set and solid foundation for any planning completely seems to be Father's Will, and the more one reads scripture, the more they can come to understand not only what Father Wills for one thing, but for themselves and all of creation. That way, so much more makes sense than those small things that happen on just a day to day basis. The bigger picture can be seen, and even that bigger picture is still small in comparison to Father, Herself. Microscopically.