This is something I wrote that came to mind after I cut off video gaming. Starting back up on the video gaming was largely a mistake, amongst the other activities I had:

Intimacy with Father is greater than just a friendship with love.

I have been inflating myself with things I enjoy, and while I took note of the warnings, I was bid forward, in my own heart, I'm sure, of my own will, in some way. As such, I am now experiencing the down turn of it. That is what happens when fleshly things are enjoyed and excessively so. Perhaps that may be what happens with anything that is done in excess. Only looking towards Father for help and support actually helps, but honestly, I don't want to keep doing this to Her. I have many things that are going through my mind at the moment, but one of those things is how horrible of a son I am.

It is only out of our Father's love and kindness and generosity that we may learn, know and grow in Her forgiveness. And there, in this sentence lies something so deep and unimaginably wonderful that I fail to maintain the growth and wonderfulness in my understanding. Our Father is a true parent to us, who punishes and reprimands, looking out for us and guiding us in everything. Words cannot describe this correctly. I have begun, and only begun, to experience things that I cannot seem to help stay a constant feeling in my heart, and may if not most, just cannot be explained. The way a Father would delight in their child's progress and discipline their child's misdeeds, the reason for that, is beyond words. One could give shallow reasons, logic, thoughts, concepts, but the true reason is beyond intellectual concept. It stems from one's heart, and therein lies a mirror that can be of Father. And most of all, I do not speak of something that is new. This has been experienced by many well before, this simply reiterates their experience, of the heart. There is nothing new under the sun.

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Looking back on this, I still did not see it, but the love that Father has for all of Her children is much more than just from the heart, as well, but from the lungs, from the arms, the mind, every part of one's being. Father is Spirit, and She has made us. She loves Her children with every part and aspect. We should do no different, and not only in following Her instruction, but also our hearts stemmed from Her inspiration.

Deuteronomy 6:5 -- Love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength.

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It is interesting that the "stimulus" money was called a sugar high. As it seems to factor in by concept, it could even relate money into one's own life, in how one truly cannot survive, nor live, by sugar, alone. Thus, seeking money can be like seeking candy, and seeking it too much can be like having the wrong attitude about it. Even having too much can shape a person to become sick, maybe or probably (as in likely), much, much worse.

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1 Samuel 12:21 -- Don't turn away to follow worthless things that can't profit or deliver you; they are worthless.

One simply cannot add to what Father has already said. Proverbs 30:6 Don't allow facts or things of this world to get in the way of thinking on true and worthwhile things. There are many things that can come to mind that are of no worth. There are a lot of things put into a mind that can alter a correct course of thinking. Maybe one day it will be understood where evil came from.

Not paying heed to evil thoughts requires Father's Spirit and recognition and identification of what the thought is. Evil can't possibly be beneficial, nor its product. Truth will set one free, and anything worthless or futile should be extinguished from one's mind. There is significance in all that happens, yet, the incorrect application and timing of that application to one's knowledge can be detrimental as oppose to constructive. One's own thoughts can be used against them if their enemy throws their thoughts off track. Ecclesiastes 7:21-22

If the truth of something veers their thoughts away from Father and might cause them to have specific incorrect attitudes or perspectives about things, or attempt to spike a wrongful reaction about something, then there is certainly something amiss.

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Staff is symbolic of something like being a shepherd. When Moses' staff ate the other staves, it shows supremacy. The fact that the staff turned to a snake is all of itself a symbolism that is beyond me at the moment.

(This was written a very long time ago...don't even remember. What comes to mind now is how Father is able to still utilize all things in Creation for fulfilling Her purpose, regardless of snake or otherwise. All things will fulfill Father's commands.)

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The longevity of a piece of knowledge helps to determine whether it is something to maintain and utilize. Father also helps to determine what should be listened to. There will be things that must not be brought up again in the future, so it would be best to leave them behind as necessary. Since what has been is what will be, there is little need, it seems, for one to bring up their own experiences when certain things occurred to themselves. Rather, the utilization of scripture to teach lessons seems appropriate.

What does one gain by claiming to have experienced something? Expressing that one is capable in certain tasks and sharing one's own experiences are two different things.

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I had totally forgotten that work without love is worthless. Need to remember that, or even what I do only weakens rather than strengthens.

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How much sleep is enough sleep? Just like how does one know when they've had their fill of food? It is variable day by day. One knows by Father's Spirit, Her rebukes, Her encouragement, everything. One must also consider that sleep is a physical action, just like eating, so in that sense, it really isn't "required." Everything for its time and purpose, including Father's miracles. All things will be utilized in their time and place, accordingly.

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Love causes one to be more thorough, yet, still efficient. This is only a side effect, though, and not the main effect, of which is truly multifaceted.

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How many others have worked and labored over the food that only one comes to enjoy? Much more, what is the quantity and quality of the work they had to put into the food?

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When is it okay that oneself be angry or frustrated or drained from the rudeness of another? In my own case, I don't see any reason at all that I should become those things. Father and Christ are so high above me. What they are angry at and the way they express their anger is not the same way I can.

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If I have a capacity for something, I should utilize it. I do have limits, but for whatever can be done, I should. Nothing is too hard. If we are made in Father's image, which we are, and Father is capable of all things, we have that likeness to overcome all odds. But, we do not do these things alone. Not that we'd want to, either.

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We do, at many times, have a choice over how we want to act, which may also include what attitudes we want to have, which can also influence how we really feel.

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Genetics are not a barrier. They have already been overcome.

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I am terribly sick.

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The attitudes we have can become habits, and that can take root into a person's whole being.

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As wisdom increases, grief increases, making it more difficult to maintain the proper attitudes including love and cultivation of a spirit of joy.

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The way the human body utilizes water as oppose to juice or tea or solid foods or other things is quite interesting.

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The strength of the rain within a storm varies by the portion of the dark clouds it comes from.

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If one's foundation is solid, one not need be worried about the other things that may come, so long as the foundation is solid. One must remember that their foundation is more than made of eternal rock, but that the properties of that rock are Father's own energy. That energy has the ability to heal where cracks that aren't supposed to form, do, and make all things like new, renewing the whole foundation so it never loses its shine. Those are things that rocks of what may seems like normal, fleshly circumstances, can't do. Another reason why one must flee from idolatry in all that they can.

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[Just a note, the following pertains to dreams of being in a vacation resort]

I have been in a vacation resort for a very long time. Look at my life and how easy things are! I had long considered the scripture: 1 Corinthians 4:8-17. I am not even struggling to survive! Things aren't the way they always seem to be. Even now, as I write this, I was in mid-shower, and had to put on sweat-stained and dirty clothing to cover myself and be able to write this. Wisdom has much more value than anything one may be doing at any given time. This is reflected in the Rapture.

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If at any one time one is more susceptible to evil thought injections or motivations or notions, they are at risk, as their foundation is cracked.

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Even if one's face is covered in soap, do they dare to still write down the wisdom that comes to them?

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There are things worth more than my eyes. I must also remember reasonableness in all things. Father wouldn't want one to blind themselves, so one must shoulder their burden of memory as much as possible.

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In order to catch a baseball out field, one must run out a bit further than the ball's trajectory, and then come towards it. This is easier than not running far enough, because if one doesn't, they may not actually catch what they are going after. This may be the or a same concept in hunting. Get further than the prey, then when the timing is right, pounce it. This may be a strategy better employed in a team. One should still try to be reasonable enough not running out too far. How does one know when it is too far? When it is going to produce harm that would be detrimental to the good that would be produced. One must look ahead before that would occur. That is performed via Father's Spirit.

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Song of Solomon 8:12

What if one also guards the vineyard's fruits? 1200 Silver?

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When my mom asked me if I was going to come downstairs and eat, I said no as I was just laying in bed the whole time. She wasn't too happy about it all. Symbolic. I was more trying to sleep even though I had more than enough sleep. I must always remember to be respectful of Father's setup for all of Creation. I have seen where my mom is a direct correlation of Father for me.

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Following the Way needs not any reason, yet, there is every good reason.

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Sometimes something that could be a convenience could be a detriment.

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When you have obedience, faith, loyalty and love, there is a process and procedure, but one does not lose out on any part as they progress, thus, all four of those properties, if fully grown in one's heart and there is that capacity, can be acted upon all at once.

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There is definitely symbolism in the cleaning of clogs caused by bodily excess out of drainage pipes...

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When we are provided the opportunities for outlets, one that Father condones, we would do well to exercise them.

[this came to mind in that individuals are provided time to not only rest, but also to move about and not be working. This is important, as there is a time and place for everything]

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[Heh....]

Time and place for everything.

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There was corruption on my lips, and it showed itself further in more promiscuity. I'm not sure what I'd be doing without Father's rebukes. When one is being rebuked, instead of talking or trying to reason what they are doing, they should be quiet and listen; wait for Father to speak.

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Just because it feels okay to stay in bed doesn't mean one should.

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If one seeks to be clean, they much not only remove that which dirties them from the outside, as well as what may come out from the inside, but also be sure that their natural process for the removal of waste material is unhindered, untainted, unabused, and purposefully utilized in Father's Spirit, and in all things maintained according to Father's teaching.

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There is a proper way to sit at all times.

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I still hold the attitude that I have no right to be angry.